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OH MY GOD....4 day weekends kick a hole heck of a lot of ass. today i woke up at 8:30 which was sleeping in for me...plus i went to bed at nine...hahah i know im a nerd but oh how i miss my sleep. Finally that stupid english project is done so now i just have a lot of homework instead of the hole freaking heck of a lot of homework that i had for the hellish past week. I never want to hear about transcendentalism again.
Hey i got these awesome tickets for the 21st of nov. they're going to close the brea mall for a few hours and you can only get in if you have one of these tickets and a whole bunch of stores are going to have discounts and its gonna be fun!! its a fundraiser thing and a bunch of schools go to it i guess and the tickets are 10 bucks and 7 goes to my choir new york fund thingy so if anyone wants to go that would be awesome!!
so just when i think im over this stupid thing that i feel so guilty about...it pops up again and i realize...im not over it. i dont think i ever will be over it. i really dont think there is anything i can do. i just dont see how i could ever feel the same about it. im holding so much resentment toward it, it will never be like it used to. i guess im kind of upset about it but im ready to move on but it just wont go away so i cant. i think holly and emily are the only ones that really would know what im talking about and im sorry for the vagueness to anyone else who actually read this. i just dont think i can trust anyone else with it. grrrrrr.
i think im hanging out with emily tomorrow...i hope. unless shes gonna ditch me for her new best friend. hahah EMILY call me if we're still hanging out....call me anyone who wants to hang out...one day of nothing is plenty and i cant do nothing tomorrow or ill chew my own head off.
wow this entry was really really random. i love you.
Hey i got these awesome tickets for the 21st of nov. they're going to close the brea mall for a few hours and you can only get in if you have one of these tickets and a whole bunch of stores are going to have discounts and its gonna be fun!! its a fundraiser thing and a bunch of schools go to it i guess and the tickets are 10 bucks and 7 goes to my choir new york fund thingy so if anyone wants to go that would be awesome!!
so just when i think im over this stupid thing that i feel so guilty about...it pops up again and i realize...im not over it. i dont think i ever will be over it. i really dont think there is anything i can do. i just dont see how i could ever feel the same about it. im holding so much resentment toward it, it will never be like it used to. i guess im kind of upset about it but im ready to move on but it just wont go away so i cant. i think holly and emily are the only ones that really would know what im talking about and im sorry for the vagueness to anyone else who actually read this. i just dont think i can trust anyone else with it. grrrrrr.
i think im hanging out with emily tomorrow...i hope. unless shes gonna ditch me for her new best friend. hahah EMILY call me if we're still hanging out....call me anyone who wants to hang out...one day of nothing is plenty and i cant do nothing tomorrow or ill chew my own head off.
wow this entry was really really random. i love you.