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Im tired....
and anyone who knows me also knows that it means trouble. Why do i get so cranky. ugh everything just bugs the heck out of me and i hate being so emotionally vulnerable.
Is it normal for your feelings about a person to change so drastically in such a short amount of time. Because someone who i once thought was the coolest person in the whole world....well its just i dont see that anymore and i hate that but as much as i try i cant change it back. its none of you...its just i almost dont see how we were friends in the first place ya know.
so today im dead after getting very little sleep because of working on my transcendental project for english and i pulled into the garage and a good song was playing so i just sat there and listened to it and i shut the garage door and just sat in my car for about 20 minutes in the dark listening to music (complements of emily) And i could not stop thinking about him. damnit i dont need this right now. but oh my goodness it sucks knowing that nothing will ever come of it. and i dont want to hear any comments about this because it wont help. why do i always like the guys that i have no chance with??? grrrr
so now all i want to do is sleep but that is just not an option right now. stupid homework...stupid school....stupid boys.... stupid..... stupid...... stupid
But other that all of that i am one happy girl. i havent stopped laughing all week. and whats worse is lately ive been the one making me laugh...in the middle of spanish...on my way to chemistry....in the bathroom.....hhahahah i think i need some help...but im too tired to get any....oh poo
and anyone who knows me also knows that it means trouble. Why do i get so cranky. ugh everything just bugs the heck out of me and i hate being so emotionally vulnerable.
Is it normal for your feelings about a person to change so drastically in such a short amount of time. Because someone who i once thought was the coolest person in the whole world....well its just i dont see that anymore and i hate that but as much as i try i cant change it back. its none of you...its just i almost dont see how we were friends in the first place ya know.
so today im dead after getting very little sleep because of working on my transcendental project for english and i pulled into the garage and a good song was playing so i just sat there and listened to it and i shut the garage door and just sat in my car for about 20 minutes in the dark listening to music (complements of emily) And i could not stop thinking about him. damnit i dont need this right now. but oh my goodness it sucks knowing that nothing will ever come of it. and i dont want to hear any comments about this because it wont help. why do i always like the guys that i have no chance with??? grrrr
so now all i want to do is sleep but that is just not an option right now. stupid homework...stupid school....stupid boys.... stupid..... stupid...... stupid
But other that all of that i am one happy girl. i havent stopped laughing all week. and whats worse is lately ive been the one making me laugh...in the middle of spanish...on my way to chemistry....in the bathroom.....hhahahah i think i need some help...but im too tired to get any....oh poo