it has to mean something
so, today i got fired from my job at la porte. it wasn't anything i did, they just don't have enough money. I'm going to call all my students and see if they want to still take from me over the weekends this fall. for the past three hours, I've emailed 8 schools my resume, emailed the principal violist of River oaks chamber orchestra to see if i can play for him and get in, emailed the texas music festival to try to be a ringer, and emailed the woodlands, sacramento, and austin symphonies to say i'm still available to sub for them. i'm tired now. i feel like i haven't done anything today but this took precedent over everything. i'm not going to work out b/c i have to go to potluck tonight and i also want to practice.
i might not know it now but something good might come out of this. maybe it's preparing me for a move somewhere else. cutting all my ties/reasons down to make it easier. i know that gary and i have already talked about when he has to move after he finishes his PHD and he pretty much said we'd be living together when the time comes to move. I thought that would be the case b/c it makes the most sense, but to hear him say it was nice. and again, it's a big step. this summer is going to be dynamic. i wonder if i should just not go home and stay in houston for the month of june so that i can go to austin and play with this band i made contact with. i don't know if any money will come out of it but it might be really good for me. I want to go to chicago with gary in july but am freaked that i won't have enough money to do something like that. it needs to be figured out in the next week, because that's when i go home and i don't want to wait on buying plane tickets b/c they get so expensive.
I'm thinking europe. there are lots of jobs open over there and i'd love to live over there. i should give it time. but it still sucks and it still freaks me out financially. in time...
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i might not know it now but something good might come out of this. maybe it's preparing me for a move somewhere else. cutting all my ties/reasons down to make it easier. i know that gary and i have already talked about when he has to move after he finishes his PHD and he pretty much said we'd be living together when the time comes to move. I thought that would be the case b/c it makes the most sense, but to hear him say it was nice. and again, it's a big step. this summer is going to be dynamic. i wonder if i should just not go home and stay in houston for the month of june so that i can go to austin and play with this band i made contact with. i don't know if any money will come out of it but it might be really good for me. I want to go to chicago with gary in july but am freaked that i won't have enough money to do something like that. it needs to be figured out in the next week, because that's when i go home and i don't want to wait on buying plane tickets b/c they get so expensive.
I'm thinking europe. there are lots of jobs open over there and i'd love to live over there. i should give it time. but it still sucks and it still freaks me out financially. in time...
K