Character journal entry - Mouse (Daughter of G&J)
I don't understand Daddy sometimes. For the most part we get along great, though he gets growly about skirts being too short or the bikini of the month that Mom and I get when we go shopping. I mean, Mom wears this stuff and he gets a different growly, the gross parent kind. But with me, it's always the "Go put something else on!" or "Go get a sweater to cover that!" and I don't understand why...if it's alright for Mom why isn't it alright for me?
And then there's this whole Shaun issue. He won't let us be alone, ever. Even if it's just while we're on the couch watching a movie or surfing out back in the ocean. I don't understand what he thinks is going to happen, really. So maybe Shaun and I have kissed a little, what does he expect is going to happen while we're watching a movie in the den?
And now there's this no dating until I'm seventeen. I'll be the only girl on the planet that hasn't had a date ever by seventeen! I love Daddy, I do, but this. I feel like this will totally ruin my life. No one is going to wait to date me, they'll move on and date someone else and I'll be left alone and heartbroken just because Daddy is being too strict. Mom says they discussed it, but I know it was Daddy by the way he watches Shaun and I together. He's always watching and if he's not, Nathaniel is. How lame is it that Daddy's got my baby brother chaperoning us when we're together? I'm old enough to be able to be alone with a boy, honestly!
I'm not even sure I want to think about what this whole no dating thing will mean for me when dances at school come up. All my friends will have wonderful boys to bring them to the dance and they'll all be in wonderful dresses and I'll be stuck at home, unable to show my face because I wasn't allowed to have a date. Fourteen years old and my life is already over! I might as well just become a hermit or something. What's the point of being out in the world if I'm only half allowed to be out in it and experience things?
I just wish I knew why he was being so strict about this. What is it he thinks I'm going to go and do that I need these rules. Why doesn't he think he can trust me? I've never done anything to not be trusted, have I? I mean, I can't remember any times that I might have lost his trust. I strive to get A's at school. I practice my piano and guitar lessons every day. He's even trusted me enough to let me play with him and the rest of the Nightshades. I just wish I knew why he didn't trust me. And maybe how in the world I can get him to trust me. I hate thinking that maybe there's something I could have done better that maybe he'd trust me more.
And then there's this whole Shaun issue. He won't let us be alone, ever. Even if it's just while we're on the couch watching a movie or surfing out back in the ocean. I don't understand what he thinks is going to happen, really. So maybe Shaun and I have kissed a little, what does he expect is going to happen while we're watching a movie in the den?
And now there's this no dating until I'm seventeen. I'll be the only girl on the planet that hasn't had a date ever by seventeen! I love Daddy, I do, but this. I feel like this will totally ruin my life. No one is going to wait to date me, they'll move on and date someone else and I'll be left alone and heartbroken just because Daddy is being too strict. Mom says they discussed it, but I know it was Daddy by the way he watches Shaun and I together. He's always watching and if he's not, Nathaniel is. How lame is it that Daddy's got my baby brother chaperoning us when we're together? I'm old enough to be able to be alone with a boy, honestly!
I'm not even sure I want to think about what this whole no dating thing will mean for me when dances at school come up. All my friends will have wonderful boys to bring them to the dance and they'll all be in wonderful dresses and I'll be stuck at home, unable to show my face because I wasn't allowed to have a date. Fourteen years old and my life is already over! I might as well just become a hermit or something. What's the point of being out in the world if I'm only half allowed to be out in it and experience things?
I just wish I knew why he was being so strict about this. What is it he thinks I'm going to go and do that I need these rules. Why doesn't he think he can trust me? I've never done anything to not be trusted, have I? I mean, I can't remember any times that I might have lost his trust. I strive to get A's at school. I practice my piano and guitar lessons every day. He's even trusted me enough to let me play with him and the rest of the Nightshades. I just wish I knew why he didn't trust me. And maybe how in the world I can get him to trust me. I hate thinking that maybe there's something I could have done better that maybe he'd trust me more.