Death and the Smiling Green Car
We killed the car today. We didn't mean to, and we are bruised and battered. The air bags deployed and marked me with the impact and minor facial chemical burns. It was an accident ... for some of us. There is a lot of rumbling going on inside. I, Eileen, wasn't exactly driving, Steel Blue was behind the wheel, I was behind the eyes, and wasn't even aware that was the case. There are layers of differing truths and realities, based on who you talk to inside. Steel Blue is sleeping with Lindy now, finally asleep after coming face to face with her own dark truths, so much there. Despair coupled with the feeling that they couldn't deal anymore. We have a new rule round here, no more kids driving. Just isn't the best set of judgment skills while emotions swirl. Snow, coupled with hail, hot on the heels of overwhelm and the need to not be late, disorientation, rash decisions, CRASH.
Three silver linings 1. No serious injuries 2. No better time to buy a truck 3. Steel Blue gets a shot at healing and she also gets a chance at making mistakes and knowing that the world will not stop spinning and love is still abundant and available.