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Ever had so many hurtful things, so many hard decisions, so much work come at you... all one at a time of course, but because they are hard to deal with you ignore them?
Then all of a sudden the one straw, the one person, thats holding you together, all of a sudden just not be able to cut it anymore?
so you're a walking disaster that falls apart at the smallest thoughts and just the wrong words make you retreat into your hole because you just can't handle it all right now.
Being who I am this eats away at me because I'm suppose to be strong and the toughest person I know, I say I can deal with anything and for the first time in my life I can't handle it alone. I feel broken and useless and defeated.
I know people want to help, but for some reason the only person with the ability to help me doesn't even know I'm broken, and I can't tell him I'm broken because that shows I'm weak. So the thing I need the most in my hurt I won't ask for because I'm to tough for that. Irony of it all, right?
Then all of a sudden the one straw, the one person, thats holding you together, all of a sudden just not be able to cut it anymore?
so you're a walking disaster that falls apart at the smallest thoughts and just the wrong words make you retreat into your hole because you just can't handle it all right now.
Being who I am this eats away at me because I'm suppose to be strong and the toughest person I know, I say I can deal with anything and for the first time in my life I can't handle it alone. I feel broken and useless and defeated.
I know people want to help, but for some reason the only person with the ability to help me doesn't even know I'm broken, and I can't tell him I'm broken because that shows I'm weak. So the thing I need the most in my hurt I won't ask for because I'm to tough for that. Irony of it all, right?