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It would appear that german is starting to stick (gee, that only took 2 fucking months), or maybe everybody is just dumbing things down for me. It seems that I can understand more when I don't listen to music, odd correlation, wondering if they're related.
I don't know why, but the cold in Germany seems colder to me. Seriously, we keep our house temperature at about 55 degrees F back home, and that is just fine for me. But here, I don't know how cold it is, but it feels colder. My hands get hard to use with any degree of precision when they get cold (ironic that the guy that loves cold has poor circulation in his hands, eh? Laugh fuckin' riot), and I can't even write well enough that I can always read it. This is the first winter I can remember where I wished it was spring already (we don't even have snow here!).
I am gradually relearning things about myself. Not really good things, just things. For example, I am a blaytant oportunist, and I love when girls flirt with me. Regardless of whether I am involved with somebody else, I always eye the girls in a crowd to see if any are watching me (considering how mch I don't bother to maintain any level of appearance, and that I don't actually like to talk to people that much, I find my level of vanity disproportionate, and a bit odd. I also have a hard time walking past any reflective surface without looking at my own reflection).
The gun issue. Germans don't get it, and they don't want to. I love guns, I am quite literally all consumed by them most of the time. Anybody that knows me well knows that if they catch me on AIM I am probably online looking up something gun related, and I am already feeling embarassed because I anticipate that my girlfriend will ask me which I thought about more often: Guns, or her.
The sad fact is, that I can think about guns every waking hour of the day, and all it does is make me think more about guns. If I think about her, I wind up thinking about one of two things. (1) I miss her, and it depresses me. Or (2) I miss fooling around with her, and thinking about it makes me horny. Neither of those two feeling is going to do me any good over here, so when I can I just think about the AR15a1 lightwieght carbine build I have been putting together in my head, or the FEG SA85 that will be getting hammered together in late april, or the AR15a2 HBar I'm putting together from the upper my brother is selling me, or...you get the idea. The possabilities are endless, and the knowledge I can look up online keeps me occupied when I'm not buisy learning anything.
So this is what it has come to. The same shit that it came to at the begining of last semester. Keeping my mind occupied to keep my sanity, just so that when I finally get home I can be with her again. Have I ever mentioned that reality is a pain in the ass? Bah, one more month, I can handle that.
I dunno, something about my mood, I don't trust myself right now. This is always a disconcerting feeling...
I don't know why, but the cold in Germany seems colder to me. Seriously, we keep our house temperature at about 55 degrees F back home, and that is just fine for me. But here, I don't know how cold it is, but it feels colder. My hands get hard to use with any degree of precision when they get cold (ironic that the guy that loves cold has poor circulation in his hands, eh? Laugh fuckin' riot), and I can't even write well enough that I can always read it. This is the first winter I can remember where I wished it was spring already (we don't even have snow here!).
I am gradually relearning things about myself. Not really good things, just things. For example, I am a blaytant oportunist, and I love when girls flirt with me. Regardless of whether I am involved with somebody else, I always eye the girls in a crowd to see if any are watching me (considering how mch I don't bother to maintain any level of appearance, and that I don't actually like to talk to people that much, I find my level of vanity disproportionate, and a bit odd. I also have a hard time walking past any reflective surface without looking at my own reflection).
The gun issue. Germans don't get it, and they don't want to. I love guns, I am quite literally all consumed by them most of the time. Anybody that knows me well knows that if they catch me on AIM I am probably online looking up something gun related, and I am already feeling embarassed because I anticipate that my girlfriend will ask me which I thought about more often: Guns, or her.
The sad fact is, that I can think about guns every waking hour of the day, and all it does is make me think more about guns. If I think about her, I wind up thinking about one of two things. (1) I miss her, and it depresses me. Or (2) I miss fooling around with her, and thinking about it makes me horny. Neither of those two feeling is going to do me any good over here, so when I can I just think about the AR15a1 lightwieght carbine build I have been putting together in my head, or the FEG SA85 that will be getting hammered together in late april, or the AR15a2 HBar I'm putting together from the upper my brother is selling me, or...you get the idea. The possabilities are endless, and the knowledge I can look up online keeps me occupied when I'm not buisy learning anything.
So this is what it has come to. The same shit that it came to at the begining of last semester. Keeping my mind occupied to keep my sanity, just so that when I finally get home I can be with her again. Have I ever mentioned that reality is a pain in the ass? Bah, one more month, I can handle that.
I dunno, something about my mood, I don't trust myself right now. This is always a disconcerting feeling...