::sigh::
I don't feel like myself. It's slightly disturbing.
I need some new people in my life. Add to the mix man.
I feel lonely. No different than a month ago. No different than a week and a day ago. Nothing really has changed.
I am repulsive. No wonder no one wants to ... I don't even know where that was going.
I ran out of cigarettes tonight. I just got the pack on fucking Friday, for Christ's sake. And I could use one right now too.
You're so sensitive; I am, I am a machine.
It's true. I just function through life, no feeling. No emotion. Jesus, what the fuck am I?
Brad broke up with my mom today. It's sad. I really like Brad. They were together for nearly nine years. He was in my life for 9 years, while my dad was in my life for about 2 and a half. The first two and a half. So divorce then, whatever. No effect on me really. But, I love Brad. He was more of a father to me than the sperm donor ever could be. He has no idea how to be. But Brad, he's nice. He was a good daddy-like kinda guy. He said he's still going to be as much part of my life as I want him to be. He's going to come to my graduation. Things like that. I'm sad. I love Brad. Oh well.
My lungs are killing me. Fucking lungs.
I did a telethon last night and talked to the most stoned man in the history of the world. He was hilarious. They were calling to donate money during this Rolling Stones thing, and of course this man called. haha. He gave 96$, and I helped him make that decision. Haha. That was nice. Went and hung out with Tony and various others afterward.
Friday however was mucho fun. Frog, Jeremy, Josh and Michael came over. Along with Lauren and Ally. We played drinking games and watched movies. And Josh put peanut butter on Jeremy's balls after he passed out and my dog Coby licked it off. THAT was special, and if I would have known that was happening, I would have prevented it. But there's a video.. haha. Maybe I'll post it later.
I feel exhausted and I hate daylight savings time.
J'ai les devoirs. I think that's right. I look cute in this shirt and this jacket and I may wear it to Frog's or when I see Vinny next weekend. Well, I'm definitely going to see Vinny, but whenever I go to Frog's next.
Should I start talking to Low again? I can't decide... Help? Ugh. This is one that I should hold a grudge for. But, I don't know if I can bring myself to do it. It's all so confusing.
I am so done with life right now.
I need some new people in my life. Add to the mix man.
I feel lonely. No different than a month ago. No different than a week and a day ago. Nothing really has changed.
I am repulsive. No wonder no one wants to ... I don't even know where that was going.
I ran out of cigarettes tonight. I just got the pack on fucking Friday, for Christ's sake. And I could use one right now too.
You're so sensitive; I am, I am a machine.
It's true. I just function through life, no feeling. No emotion. Jesus, what the fuck am I?
Brad broke up with my mom today. It's sad. I really like Brad. They were together for nearly nine years. He was in my life for 9 years, while my dad was in my life for about 2 and a half. The first two and a half. So divorce then, whatever. No effect on me really. But, I love Brad. He was more of a father to me than the sperm donor ever could be. He has no idea how to be. But Brad, he's nice. He was a good daddy-like kinda guy. He said he's still going to be as much part of my life as I want him to be. He's going to come to my graduation. Things like that. I'm sad. I love Brad. Oh well.
My lungs are killing me. Fucking lungs.
I did a telethon last night and talked to the most stoned man in the history of the world. He was hilarious. They were calling to donate money during this Rolling Stones thing, and of course this man called. haha. He gave 96$, and I helped him make that decision. Haha. That was nice. Went and hung out with Tony and various others afterward.
Friday however was mucho fun. Frog, Jeremy, Josh and Michael came over. Along with Lauren and Ally. We played drinking games and watched movies. And Josh put peanut butter on Jeremy's balls after he passed out and my dog Coby licked it off. THAT was special, and if I would have known that was happening, I would have prevented it. But there's a video.. haha. Maybe I'll post it later.
I feel exhausted and I hate daylight savings time.
J'ai les devoirs. I think that's right. I look cute in this shirt and this jacket and I may wear it to Frog's or when I see Vinny next weekend. Well, I'm definitely going to see Vinny, but whenever I go to Frog's next.
Should I start talking to Low again? I can't decide... Help? Ugh. This is one that I should hold a grudge for. But, I don't know if I can bring myself to do it. It's all so confusing.
I am so done with life right now.