B -18- Iscariot Forgiven?
In the interest of taking my own advice, i will practice as well as preech the simple technique of 'don't tell, but don't hide', and i think that's unusual since my past few entries have bordored on implicit truth.
But i no longer feel entirely like i'm supressing a part of my life, cos when it comes down to the crunch, if needs be i THINK that part of my life is associable with respect and the 'right' thing... it's all about compromise; but there is a point you have to be shown that your not just putting up with the shit for nothing.... and when that happens, which it can more often that not if you just relax a little, then yes; it can be brilliant and make you happy... and this can apply to so much in life, not just what might be percieved by some as the obvious
So was Judas forgiven for his betrayal.... perhaps, but such a treachery is a tough thing to forget... so it's not always all that simple i guess.
Still, in the overall sense, at least for now, there's a calm after the storm, as opposed to before. Although i think there was one of those as well :P.
Earlier (and i mean really early on) i said in this journal how much i hated dependance, and how it was my greatest weakness. I still think it is, but i have to conceed that sometimes it can be a beautiful thing to be weak in that respect (ew, that sounded like one of a thousand cliches). We are living in the age of organic solidarity... and i dont just mean that in the sociological sense (haha, see by saying something like that i create the illusion of being intelligent) but we really are dependant organisms... in every sense. Even if we think we're not...
Anyway... i think my exceptionally tired rambling had the point of just reminding myself that people are falable... some mistakes are just that... mistakes (granted stupid horrible cruel and sick ones)... and not excusable!
...but perhaps not completely unforgivable either, even if you can't forget it.
I dunno... I'm no wiser than any of the other millions of people who aimlessly wander around looking for the line between truth and deception, just to draw i clearer in their own minds. But i know that line's there....
...
and i think we're nearly on the right side at the moment...
just gotta keep at it... if its something u want you'll find a way
(insert some kind of inspirational jiberish)
here's to life; the good and the bad...
Ciao :D
But i no longer feel entirely like i'm supressing a part of my life, cos when it comes down to the crunch, if needs be i THINK that part of my life is associable with respect and the 'right' thing... it's all about compromise; but there is a point you have to be shown that your not just putting up with the shit for nothing.... and when that happens, which it can more often that not if you just relax a little, then yes; it can be brilliant and make you happy... and this can apply to so much in life, not just what might be percieved by some as the obvious
So was Judas forgiven for his betrayal.... perhaps, but such a treachery is a tough thing to forget... so it's not always all that simple i guess.
Still, in the overall sense, at least for now, there's a calm after the storm, as opposed to before. Although i think there was one of those as well :P.
Earlier (and i mean really early on) i said in this journal how much i hated dependance, and how it was my greatest weakness. I still think it is, but i have to conceed that sometimes it can be a beautiful thing to be weak in that respect (ew, that sounded like one of a thousand cliches). We are living in the age of organic solidarity... and i dont just mean that in the sociological sense (haha, see by saying something like that i create the illusion of being intelligent) but we really are dependant organisms... in every sense. Even if we think we're not...
Anyway... i think my exceptionally tired rambling had the point of just reminding myself that people are falable... some mistakes are just that... mistakes (granted stupid horrible cruel and sick ones)... and not excusable!
...but perhaps not completely unforgivable either, even if you can't forget it.
I dunno... I'm no wiser than any of the other millions of people who aimlessly wander around looking for the line between truth and deception, just to draw i clearer in their own minds. But i know that line's there....
...
and i think we're nearly on the right side at the moment...
just gotta keep at it... if its something u want you'll find a way
(insert some kind of inspirational jiberish)
here's to life; the good and the bad...
Ciao :D