The 100...
More than worth the price of my camera I think, although I'm freaking pissed off I lost that cute picture of Sally-O and I. If whoever stole my camera could email me all of the pictures I had taken, that would be sweet. Really. Oh well I suppose that's not an option. Other than that there's only one thing about the night I would change, which is one person's walk to BBB and back... and then immediately back to BBB. I rather regret that. On the whole though, it was the best night ever.
I must mention that Becky-is-Love.... well she's love. A rose, the sweetest present ever. And her hair's so soft. *grin* Yup. I don't know. Well at least there's only mild awkwardness, and the friends who needed to accepted my apology with no fuss at all. No one knows what comes next, but I do. I stand before my little altar and pray for peace and it comes to me. I continue loving all of my friends so very much. I live my 20 year old life. I celebrate baby Bosco's brand new life. I do my EE homework.
I think that I'm going to try to be different now. Someone was mad at me this weekend for the way I've been so self-absorbed for the last month. I don't deny it. I don't regret it. I don't want to keep doing it. I don't know what specific changes I'm making at the moment, but I feel that my month of healing has done some wonders. After all, my altar is decorated by a fairly large number of those cards they give you at wakes. If I can look across them all and think of good times and remember sage advice and funny comments and the way people said things and smile at it all instead of ending on the floor in a ball sobbing... things are definitely looking up. We'll see how life goes next October, but that is 6 months away. For now I need a bit of rest since I've only slept 12 or so hours this weekend it seems.
I love you. Find peace.
I must mention that Becky-is-Love.... well she's love. A rose, the sweetest present ever. And her hair's so soft. *grin* Yup. I don't know. Well at least there's only mild awkwardness, and the friends who needed to accepted my apology with no fuss at all. No one knows what comes next, but I do. I stand before my little altar and pray for peace and it comes to me. I continue loving all of my friends so very much. I live my 20 year old life. I celebrate baby Bosco's brand new life. I do my EE homework.
I think that I'm going to try to be different now. Someone was mad at me this weekend for the way I've been so self-absorbed for the last month. I don't deny it. I don't regret it. I don't want to keep doing it. I don't know what specific changes I'm making at the moment, but I feel that my month of healing has done some wonders. After all, my altar is decorated by a fairly large number of those cards they give you at wakes. If I can look across them all and think of good times and remember sage advice and funny comments and the way people said things and smile at it all instead of ending on the floor in a ball sobbing... things are definitely looking up. We'll see how life goes next October, but that is 6 months away. For now I need a bit of rest since I've only slept 12 or so hours this weekend it seems.
I love you. Find peace.