an entry that's just a little too personal
so, last night started out nice. i had cramps (not that anyone wanted to know :)) which gave me a good excuse to skip out of tuesday night field day muster. i went to my room and i watched 3 movies. like every other night since i have been back from leave, people were in and out all damn night. about 2340 i made a phone call that contained, debatably, one of the worst conversations i have ever had in my entire life. the contents of the phone call are not really that important, so i have left them out. i proceeded to revert back to psycho "pre-navy" rachel for about an hour. it downright sucked.
after my terrible phone call, i called mattie and had another conversation that was probably designed to wither whatever was left of my good nature, away. although, there was a lot of truths that hurt me very bad in that conversation, it was still a friendly reminder of what a wonderful person he really is. he has such a tactful way of telling me that we will never see each other (and quite possibly never speak to one another) again.
anyway, the moral of the story is, everyone leaves you sometime in your life. some quick, some just dwindle away. no matter how fast they go, or what way life decides to take them from you, it hurts.
after my terrible phone call, i called mattie and had another conversation that was probably designed to wither whatever was left of my good nature, away. although, there was a lot of truths that hurt me very bad in that conversation, it was still a friendly reminder of what a wonderful person he really is. he has such a tactful way of telling me that we will never see each other (and quite possibly never speak to one another) again.
anyway, the moral of the story is, everyone leaves you sometime in your life. some quick, some just dwindle away. no matter how fast they go, or what way life decides to take them from you, it hurts.