another one of those nights
some nights are worse than others. i have had a very bad night. first i studied for three hours just to fail a stupid ass test that no one in the world could pass. next i find out my girlfriend is going to study with LOGAN, who by the way is supposed to be this model guy with a perfect body. oh and did i mention this is the same guy that my girlfriend was in his apartment while he was showering not too long ago. ISNT THAT GREAT!!!!! oh and then this girl, who i havent seen in a week and a half and who i care about very much, calls and wants to talk about an ex-boyfriend calling and pissing her off. and i listen to the whole thing and i try to make things better and all she does is make me feel like shyt. i dont blame u, in fact u had every right to make me feel like that. i mean heck, i am jealous of how this guy can just get under yuor skin by simply calling you names. i wish i had that affect on you. not so much pissing u off, but just stirring up these emotions that show u really care. i told myself today that i was going to be a happier person but i dont think i can, i have too much pride and too much emotion. i wish i could think of more to write but right now im so confused about everything and this last converstaion didnt help at all. so holla til next time.