Phoenix
My entry today doesn't REALLY have anything to do with a phoenix. It's more literal.
Basically, the beginning of the myth is that a phoenix, which is always very beautiful, dies. This is kind of what I've been dealing with recently in a more metaphorical sense. My mother was deteriorating and they didn't think she was going to make it, so we ended up taking her off of life support. I didn't get the great grades that I would have liked to have gotten and I was getting so frustrated and tired of dealing with work. Eric was also struggling with losing weight and trying to keep us together in the face of us both focuses on ourselves.
Thankfully however, that's not the end of the story. The phoenix is reborn from the ashes from when it burst into flames and died. As of right now, I'm very happy about a lot of things. It's no where near "perfect" but it is certainly growing to be a decent future. First, MY MOTHER IS IMPROVING. They told me it would only take a few hours for her to pass, but here we are, a week later, and she's getting better and better each day. I couldn't be more excited because I was really having a rough time processing the fact that she was going to be gone from my life forever. Then of course, there's the fact that I'm focusing really hard on making sure that my classes get taken care of this semester. It is absolutely crucial to my success and feeling of self-worth that I manage nothing but As and Bs and that I continue that on into my last two semesters. Eric's weight loss has excelerated at an almost alarming pace, so soon I will be here by myself and no offence, but in order for this semester to get taken care of the way it needs to be, I'm waiting on that.
Perhaps the 2nd most exciting thing of everything though, is that work is actually something that I feel like I'm being noticed at!!! I'm being considered for a position as a coach! I've been telling everyone there that this was exactly what I was wanting because working on the phones and taking calls? Not necessarily my cup of tea. The only problem is that right now, I'm stuck in an appointment frame of mind, instead of prospects, which is where the position is. I'm SO ecstatic about that and I hope I get this job. For one, I'm sure I'll make more money, even if its only by working more hours.
So as of right now, I had a really rough christmas break, but despite that, things are starting to look up.