Three months is how long I measure happiness...
Well, it's been a while. I've been sucked into Facebook but... I wander here now and then.
October to December... happiest I've been in far too long and now it's done. Met a young lady, we tried to have a BDSM relationship that did not work for various reasons, had a 'romantic' get away on New Years weekend which wasn't... and it's over. It's been rough. Add in health, work and few other fun things and... I'm tired. Exhausted. Just...
She didn't think we had enough sex [I thought we did, but could have had more]. I'm going to miss that... most intense and incredible sex I've ever had. I've always been a quality over quantity guy, anyways.
I think I'm giving up on relationships for a while. A long while. No... not think, I know I am.
Today I got my first ink. First tattoo of three. I'm going to wear my soul, my heart and my mind on my flesh. It's become important to me. I forget... these will help me remember. Discovered once again I do NOT like pain. Not at all. Fuck that hurt. But it's beautiful. Incredible. I had it designed for me. It's mine. It's me. So will one of the other two be. The third will not be... for a reason.
I am... in an okay place but... *shrug* we'll see.
October to December... happiest I've been in far too long and now it's done. Met a young lady, we tried to have a BDSM relationship that did not work for various reasons, had a 'romantic' get away on New Years weekend which wasn't... and it's over. It's been rough. Add in health, work and few other fun things and... I'm tired. Exhausted. Just...
She didn't think we had enough sex [I thought we did, but could have had more]. I'm going to miss that... most intense and incredible sex I've ever had. I've always been a quality over quantity guy, anyways.
I think I'm giving up on relationships for a while. A long while. No... not think, I know I am.
Today I got my first ink. First tattoo of three. I'm going to wear my soul, my heart and my mind on my flesh. It's become important to me. I forget... these will help me remember. Discovered once again I do NOT like pain. Not at all. Fuck that hurt. But it's beautiful. Incredible. I had it designed for me. It's mine. It's me. So will one of the other two be. The third will not be... for a reason.
I am... in an okay place but... *shrug* we'll see.