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i'm torn
i dont know whether to call this a great day or the shittiest birthday ever .
last night i lost one of my best friends (deidre) becuz apparently i'm oblivious to my wanting to control her life problem. we got into a fight last night and she told me i was a bossy little bitch with an attitude. i asked her to give me time that i was and she couldn't. she told me to watch my back. i'm sorry but u can't sound hardcore over aim. y all of the sudden she was saying it now idk. it was all completely random. she said all she needed in her life was ray. idk what i have to do to get it through her fucking head that guys will come and go. well when he breaks her heart she better not come cryin to me cuz i'll just laugh in her fucking face. so i got to go to bed crying. yay for me.
today prolly the best thing that happend was i come to 1st hour and find a big pink heart shaped cake on my desk lol. daniella had baked me a cake. i love her like woah. i told her she's gonna be the god-mother of my children lol. so i saved it for lunch and shared it with everyone. they all sang happy birthday to me except josh who said fuck u between lines, so i threw my candles at him. but he did say happy birthday to me later on in the day. john snatched one of my party invitations and gave it to him so now him and kristina might show up. good thing his curfew is 7 cuz the party starts at 6 so if they do come they'll only stay for like 45 minutes. after t skool kt rode the bus home with me and then rick, marcy, and donie came over for a while. rick and donnie left without saying good bye cuz i was in the other room talking to my mom but oh well. my mom had to leave early cuz dave was having his banquet for basketball. he so pissed his team lost but atleast they got to play in the finals. so he decides to take it out on my mom. god he's such an asshole sometimes. then my dad came over and almost decided to leave cuz my mom was leaving so he felt if she didn't have to stay then neither did my dad. thanks a lot. so i stuck some candles in the cake and blew them out. then my dad told me he was selling the house cuz he can't afford it ne more. on top of that he's thinking about becoming someone's room mate. so we wouldn't even be spending the night with him ne more. he would just be dropping us off everyday. he's also losing his car in april when his lease goes down. he might not even get another one if he can walk to work everyday. but if not we're getting my grandma's taurus. this will go on until my dad is out of debt so about a year. after i graduate. so idk should i call this a shitty birthday? i just can't seem to stop crying. lucky me how i get to go to bed like this on my birthday. i really wish someone was here right now. i think the one good side of this is that neither dana or brittney was here today so that made my day a little better. daniella decorated my locker and there were snowmen on it. the skinny one was dana and the fat one was brittney lol. everyone drew all over them and john drew a penis on each one. i think i'm gonna frame it or tape it on my wall. this sucks def leppard isn't even working for me...