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so wow... its been like forever!! umm i dont even know where to start... nothing too exciting has really been happening.. i mean classes, friends, dorm life lol yah know the usual.. yeah i cant exactly say that i like it here though.. i havent quiet decided yet.
i mean obviously i like it but i just miss home and all my old friends so much! Especially with my brother being gone... its so hard to be here and like away from everything that im used to.. and my family.. and the places where all my memories are with him, ahhh its so hard... i try not to talk about it because i just cry when i do! but i really do miss him so incredibly much it like physically hurts... ughh... i dunno and i never get to see peyton cuz i am always here when he is over... it all sucks so much... and like i was here when i found out he died, so this place to me just keeps reminding me of that! i was here having so much fun while he was dying, and now i feel like i am not capable of having fun anymore because i am just so upset.
and its like you know how there are certain people that just have the right kind of comfort that you need? well those people arent there for me right now and im dying... like i need my sister but i only get to see her when i go home and i need nick... but he most definitly has not been there for me, not since i got to college and it sucks because he was my best friend and now we talk like once everyother week online and they are horrible conversations... i dunno i hate it...
on a happier note.. my cousin chris had a baby, savahna! she is sooooo cute ahh i love her1!!! well anyway i just thought i would do a little update but i have class soon =\ so i should get going... comment cuz i miss you all so much!!! ♥♥
My birthday is on friday... the big 1..8 =)
Jenn
i mean obviously i like it but i just miss home and all my old friends so much! Especially with my brother being gone... its so hard to be here and like away from everything that im used to.. and my family.. and the places where all my memories are with him, ahhh its so hard... i try not to talk about it because i just cry when i do! but i really do miss him so incredibly much it like physically hurts... ughh... i dunno and i never get to see peyton cuz i am always here when he is over... it all sucks so much... and like i was here when i found out he died, so this place to me just keeps reminding me of that! i was here having so much fun while he was dying, and now i feel like i am not capable of having fun anymore because i am just so upset.
and its like you know how there are certain people that just have the right kind of comfort that you need? well those people arent there for me right now and im dying... like i need my sister but i only get to see her when i go home and i need nick... but he most definitly has not been there for me, not since i got to college and it sucks because he was my best friend and now we talk like once everyother week online and they are horrible conversations... i dunno i hate it...
on a happier note.. my cousin chris had a baby, savahna! she is sooooo cute ahh i love her1!!! well anyway i just thought i would do a little update but i have class soon =\ so i should get going... comment cuz i miss you all so much!!! ♥♥
My birthday is on friday... the big 1..8 =)
Jenn