worst day of my life
So my brother passed away yesterday! He went camping with my dad, and my two uncles...they were fishing and he just started shaking and then went limp and fell overboard. So my dad and my uncles jumped in after him and it took them a while to find him and when they did he was already dead.
They did an autopsy because they had no idea how this healthy 22 year old man just died.. and they found out that he had a seizure and he died instantly before he even hit the water... we also found out that he wasnt in pain when he died! So i guess that gives a little bit of comfort...
My big brother was my best friend in the whole entire world.. i dont even know how to put it into words... to describe the feelings in my heart! i feel sick about this whole thing.. like how the hell is this happening to the most amazing person i have ever known?! .. Like i cant just call my brother whenever i want to ...i havent stopped crying since i found out last night..=\
Dear god please let my brother know that i love him with my whole heart and soul... he was the most amazing brother..son.. nephew.. cousin.. and father anyone could have ever asked for! he is going to be missed so much it isnt even funny! I just want him to knowthat i love him and miss him and i know that he is watching over me! And i know that heknows i love him and i know that he loved me!.. i am speaking at his funeral... that will be hard...
I need to get some sleep.. what do i do to get through this.. because i dont think i can live without him!..
p.s. my brothers 22 birthday is on tuesday.. the day after he will be burried =\