Setting fire to the rain

[wide_eyedchild]

by letting my imagination run wild
I think I fell for the idea of you
when I see photos of you with others
and feel left out
I'm reminded that 
we're different
on different paths
in different lives
and all I can do is peek over the fence
and see what your's is like
if only for a moment

I need to remember that
we're different
and that you're busy
and that I should be busy with my own
but I keep forgetting that part
and lose myself in another fantasy.

Something that should be lighthearted
is suddenly deadly
and I stand, shocked
as the water burns my skin
and I wonder why
even as I hold the lighter in my hand

If only my heart was chained
and my mind obedient
then we wouldn't have these problems
and you could go on
unmolested
and I
I would go on
a shadow,
but a tamed shadow, nonetheless...