Everyday is a winding road...

[wickedydork]

Well everyone has their breaking point. I thought I could be super strong. Superwoman. I thought I wouldnt break down. I though I could handle it. I was wrong.

I went and saw my grandma in the hospital today. She was so convinced that she was leaving, She got mad. She Insisted on going. I feel terrible. When I left I was blinking back tears. I had to tell the nurses to watch her because she has clothes and will try to leave.

I got to my car and just lost it. completely lost it. 30 minutes of just sobbing. and crying my heart out. There is NOTHING i can do. I cant make it better, I cant show up and make her smile. Nothing. So helpless.

So I went out tonight, to a bar with Jennie. After she re-dyed my hair. Im now a brunette. Weeee. it was kareokee night. Awesome time. Didnt drink, Still rocked my ass hardcore. I needed it. I was much happier.

Went to SNS with patti and maria. Talked with tree. Hes hot. Id do him. Id more than do him. But alas, Nothings going to happen there. Oh well.

And so continues my life.
Perhaps brunettes have more fun.. because my week as a barbie blonde SUCKED.