long time, no update
so here i am again...after a while...whatever at least i remembered about this thing this time as opposed to completley forgetting i have one an account..
anywayy things have been kind of hectic for me lately. with school and college stuff and friends and personal things going on i barely have time to breathe.
going through alot of the same old insecurities that ive had forever. everyone, well the drs and therapists at LIJ used to say that there was probably a time in your life when u werent insecure about urself and ur body, and then all of a sudden, although it was technically over time..u developed a poor self image. well i can honestly say that i dont remember ever not feeling bad about the way i look, my weight, my body, etc..its always been an issue for me and it always will be. i just found out one of my friends went back to a hospital so i hope and pray shes ok..
as far as other things go..like school, i pretty much love my teachers/classes etc...crime law is just amazing, i love my physics teacher formisano, dance is cool cuz everyone is in that class, choir is.....choir,spanish i love cuz steinber is amazing and i have my leprachaun o'connor with me, english is great except i still havent made up my mind about goldstein yet, then theres health (i love sandy!), and psych which im totally into (obviously) haha..
no decisions about applications but i do know ninivaggi, fielding, and i think gunning im gonna ask to write recommendations...w/e idc right now
ik i mentioned it earlier, i just cant seem to get away from this feeling that im like not like idk good enough i guess...with a lot of things. i have goals and expectations in my life about who i wanna be what i wanna look like where i wanna be in a few years, and i feel so out of control right now. its like im having an outer body experience or something, and im watching my life as if it were a tv show, only there is no remote to go back, forward, pause, etc...i have no control i just gotta sit back and watch it
idk maybe im just weird..well i know i am, but i think u get what i mean..
anywayy things have been kind of hectic for me lately. with school and college stuff and friends and personal things going on i barely have time to breathe.
going through alot of the same old insecurities that ive had forever. everyone, well the drs and therapists at LIJ used to say that there was probably a time in your life when u werent insecure about urself and ur body, and then all of a sudden, although it was technically over time..u developed a poor self image. well i can honestly say that i dont remember ever not feeling bad about the way i look, my weight, my body, etc..its always been an issue for me and it always will be. i just found out one of my friends went back to a hospital so i hope and pray shes ok..
as far as other things go..like school, i pretty much love my teachers/classes etc...crime law is just amazing, i love my physics teacher formisano, dance is cool cuz everyone is in that class, choir is.....choir,spanish i love cuz steinber is amazing and i have my leprachaun o'connor with me, english is great except i still havent made up my mind about goldstein yet, then theres health (i love sandy!), and psych which im totally into (obviously) haha..
no decisions about applications but i do know ninivaggi, fielding, and i think gunning im gonna ask to write recommendations...w/e idc right now
ik i mentioned it earlier, i just cant seem to get away from this feeling that im like not like idk good enough i guess...with a lot of things. i have goals and expectations in my life about who i wanna be what i wanna look like where i wanna be in a few years, and i feel so out of control right now. its like im having an outer body experience or something, and im watching my life as if it were a tv show, only there is no remote to go back, forward, pause, etc...i have no control i just gotta sit back and watch it
idk maybe im just weird..well i know i am, but i think u get what i mean..