Love is insane baby, and so are we too
Okay, I wanna update this with something interesting, but all I can think of right now are 2 things and one would be the HIM songs running through my head, the other, well, I'll leave that to the imagination...but if you know about Centric you'd know.;-)
I haven't heard some of these HIM songs in forever and they are just kinda flowing through me and taking me back to memories and feelings I haven't felt in some time. It makes me smile, though normally I wouldn't smile at such memories. This band got me through a lot. For some reason, the biggest memory that comes to mind when I hear a few certian songs by them, is of last spring at the Italian place. It was all sunny and nice and the events of that day are just kinda stapled in my mind...It was an insane day, but I'm smiling about it right now...lol. *shakes head* I was a foolish chica. Still am, though for some reason, that day seemes to be more innocently stupid than it actually was. It seems carefree, but I know it wasn't...actually, I haven't known a carefree day in a long time...lol. I think it is the fact that looking back on it reminds me of North Carolina and my mountain retreat, so even though it was insane, it's still a memory I love and know I need. HIM seemed to be my theme band last year..I've liked them for quite some time, but they really became a big part of my daily life last year...The words still touch me and stir me up, for good or bad. I still want a heartagram tattoo...I might have to get one when I get back to the states, though I'll need someone to come with me incase I spazz out...enough HIM talk...
"Your love is the only thing I live for in this world. Oh, how I wait for the day your heart burns in these heavenly flames I have already scorched in. I just want you to know I'll always be waiting..."
Sorry, I had to get a HIM quote in here...<3
Okay, I have a question for whoever feels like answering...Why can't I let David have my Livejournal??? or my Xanga either...I've got a Myspace, but it's more for show and Myspace and TC seem to run hand in hand for me...so in truth, I'm not as slutty in actuality as I am on them...they are fun and games, and that's the world I let David see me in...why can't I bring myself to give him my journals? I know at one time in 8th grade, I brought in my actual journal and let him read through it...but I can't seem to do that with this...it's like there is this whole life that I write about that he won't ever see...I'm pretty fuckin open in these journals and several people read them, or can read them if they want to...but those people tend to know me well, why am I keeping David pushed back from all these thoughts? I think I'm ashamed of myself...For those who already had my journals, they knew how messed up I am by learning over the years, and for the one person on here who hasn't met me yet, I just tell him whatever comes to mind. If he can accept my worst straight off, then he's awesome. No lies there, no need to lie. It's not that I lie to David either, I just fail to bring up certain subjects or such...Then again, maybe he knows more about me than I give him credit for. He has known me for like 45 years or so...lol. Maybe I should give it to him. I wonder if he would actually read it though if I gave it to him...Bah, I'm lame and I'm going back to listening to HIM do a cover of Larger than Life by Backstreet Boys!! It's the funniest thing I've heard in a while...lol. :-)
Love<3<3<3
I haven't heard some of these HIM songs in forever and they are just kinda flowing through me and taking me back to memories and feelings I haven't felt in some time. It makes me smile, though normally I wouldn't smile at such memories. This band got me through a lot. For some reason, the biggest memory that comes to mind when I hear a few certian songs by them, is of last spring at the Italian place. It was all sunny and nice and the events of that day are just kinda stapled in my mind...It was an insane day, but I'm smiling about it right now...lol. *shakes head* I was a foolish chica. Still am, though for some reason, that day seemes to be more innocently stupid than it actually was. It seems carefree, but I know it wasn't...actually, I haven't known a carefree day in a long time...lol. I think it is the fact that looking back on it reminds me of North Carolina and my mountain retreat, so even though it was insane, it's still a memory I love and know I need. HIM seemed to be my theme band last year..I've liked them for quite some time, but they really became a big part of my daily life last year...The words still touch me and stir me up, for good or bad. I still want a heartagram tattoo...I might have to get one when I get back to the states, though I'll need someone to come with me incase I spazz out...enough HIM talk...
"Your love is the only thing I live for in this world. Oh, how I wait for the day your heart burns in these heavenly flames I have already scorched in. I just want you to know I'll always be waiting..."
Sorry, I had to get a HIM quote in here...<3
Okay, I have a question for whoever feels like answering...Why can't I let David have my Livejournal??? or my Xanga either...I've got a Myspace, but it's more for show and Myspace and TC seem to run hand in hand for me...so in truth, I'm not as slutty in actuality as I am on them...they are fun and games, and that's the world I let David see me in...why can't I bring myself to give him my journals? I know at one time in 8th grade, I brought in my actual journal and let him read through it...but I can't seem to do that with this...it's like there is this whole life that I write about that he won't ever see...I'm pretty fuckin open in these journals and several people read them, or can read them if they want to...but those people tend to know me well, why am I keeping David pushed back from all these thoughts? I think I'm ashamed of myself...For those who already had my journals, they knew how messed up I am by learning over the years, and for the one person on here who hasn't met me yet, I just tell him whatever comes to mind. If he can accept my worst straight off, then he's awesome. No lies there, no need to lie. It's not that I lie to David either, I just fail to bring up certain subjects or such...Then again, maybe he knows more about me than I give him credit for. He has known me for like 45 years or so...lol. Maybe I should give it to him. I wonder if he would actually read it though if I gave it to him...Bah, I'm lame and I'm going back to listening to HIM do a cover of Larger than Life by Backstreet Boys!! It's the funniest thing I've heard in a while...lol. :-)
Love<3<3<3