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i seriously feel like i dont have friends at all.
abby's funeral is tomorrow & im gonna go just so i can support celeste.
because i didnt know abby all that well, but it was celeste's best friend, so im going for celeste.
but im starting to wonder if celeste would notice if i go or not.
im starting to doubt all of my friends right now.
they dont seem to care about me one bit.
i hate it.
my dad wants us to move to west lafayette, which is an hour & a half north of here.
i keep saying no, im not gonna move there because i would miss my friends.
but im starting to think that maybe i should move to west lafayette.
my "friends" here dont even seem to give a shit about me, so why should i stay for them to continue to do this?
i should move there & get a fresh start & meet new people.
but i dont know.
maybe im saying this because im just pissed off & upset.
jaek hasnt texted me in more than a week, when he used to every day.
& he wont fucking reply to my texts.
steph hasnt called me, texted me, commented me on myspace or anything lately.
same with emily.
& with alexis, ive started to notice something.
it seems like she always takes FOREVER to ask her mom when i want to hang out.
& she NEVER asks me to hang out. its always me asking her.
its like she doesnt even like being around me.
then some other people i thought were my friends dont IM me, comment me on myspace, call me, etc.
im really getting sick of this.
just fuck everyone here in fishers. everyone's got an asshole attitude.
even in the rest of indiana. even in the rest of fucking america.
i want to move somewhere far far away & start fresh.
abby's funeral is tomorrow & im gonna go just so i can support celeste.
because i didnt know abby all that well, but it was celeste's best friend, so im going for celeste.
but im starting to wonder if celeste would notice if i go or not.
im starting to doubt all of my friends right now.
they dont seem to care about me one bit.
i hate it.
my dad wants us to move to west lafayette, which is an hour & a half north of here.
i keep saying no, im not gonna move there because i would miss my friends.
but im starting to think that maybe i should move to west lafayette.
my "friends" here dont even seem to give a shit about me, so why should i stay for them to continue to do this?
i should move there & get a fresh start & meet new people.
but i dont know.
maybe im saying this because im just pissed off & upset.
jaek hasnt texted me in more than a week, when he used to every day.
& he wont fucking reply to my texts.
steph hasnt called me, texted me, commented me on myspace or anything lately.
same with emily.
& with alexis, ive started to notice something.
it seems like she always takes FOREVER to ask her mom when i want to hang out.
& she NEVER asks me to hang out. its always me asking her.
its like she doesnt even like being around me.
then some other people i thought were my friends dont IM me, comment me on myspace, call me, etc.
im really getting sick of this.
just fuck everyone here in fishers. everyone's got an asshole attitude.
even in the rest of indiana. even in the rest of fucking america.
i want to move somewhere far far away & start fresh.