tmi?
So I'm on birth control. I have been since the beginning of this year. Well lately, I've been smoking. Just ciggarettes. Kool's menthols to be exact. I'm a little worried how this will affect me. I'm supposed to get my period today or tomorrow. So far, there hasn't been one sign. I'm trying to just not think about it. But right now, I lit another ciggarette! That's like my fifth one in the last two hours. I feel so stupid. I know if I get pregnant it's my fault. With Erik and I not officially being together... it's all screwed up.
So here's the deal. We are officially broken up since June 25. Hah.... two days being our six month anniversary he dumps me. Well.... he's my best friend. So basically we're still together. I mean, I have slept over here all but three times since June third. It's not something I love, but I love him and I know he still loves me. Seriously, I can tell when he just wants company and when he wants me. I figure I'll slowly move on. I'll be going to college orientation tomorrow so I'll get to meet some new people. That'll really help since my friends aren't really the kind to just go up and meet random people.
I don't think I want to do this with Erik anymore, but he does these little things that make me never want to leave. Just the other day we were outside and he turned and looked at me. We were standing really close and he just look in my eyes and told me they were really beautiful. It was like the damn Notebook movie! ::points to icon:: Which I read the book by the way, it isn't as good as the movie. But yeah... I'm young. I'll figure this whole love thing out.
Now I just need to get my period, quit smoking, and get a job! woooooo
So here's the deal. We are officially broken up since June 25. Hah.... two days being our six month anniversary he dumps me. Well.... he's my best friend. So basically we're still together. I mean, I have slept over here all but three times since June third. It's not something I love, but I love him and I know he still loves me. Seriously, I can tell when he just wants company and when he wants me. I figure I'll slowly move on. I'll be going to college orientation tomorrow so I'll get to meet some new people. That'll really help since my friends aren't really the kind to just go up and meet random people.
I don't think I want to do this with Erik anymore, but he does these little things that make me never want to leave. Just the other day we were outside and he turned and looked at me. We were standing really close and he just look in my eyes and told me they were really beautiful. It was like the damn Notebook movie! ::points to icon:: Which I read the book by the way, it isn't as good as the movie. But yeah... I'm young. I'll figure this whole love thing out.
Now I just need to get my period, quit smoking, and get a job! woooooo