it's over

[wiccanmistress]

Anthony called Max and talked to him yesterday. Max said Anthony didn't argue with him when he suggested that he and I should leave the band. Max said it was a short conversation; and last night Anthony and his friend Steve came and got a majority of stuff and then Dan and Anthony came back and got the rest of it. No discussion with me about why we were leaving the band or if I would stay....NOTHING.  Max said that Anthony did recieve Abby's  e mail and that this is why we are no longer currently in the band. (They got the message...I'm sure they interpreted it wrong; as usual) No discussion was had about Dan's behavior or sound being bad; So I'm assuming that Max was right and they would rather work with him.Actually......Not much discussion was had with me at all besides the cordual "How was your trip" and his ramblings on about traffic smalltalk......nothing with any dep or meaning. :(
 So.......I'm crushed!!!!!!!!! I feel like; once again; My heart has been ripped from my chest and shoved in my face!!!
I have no idea what I'm going to do now. (I mean;.......besides crying)

I really don't need councoling; I t is; what it is.....and it fucking Sucks!!!!!!!!!!............But; It's Over. :(