... Damn... *surprised in happy and foolish way*
So... today was definetly not what I expected...
WOOT! Good song came on my ipod just now. Some what ironic in a way... kinda makes me smile... lol. (KMFDM Intro)
Anyways, before I got distracted by the shiny thing...
So I was saying that today was definetly not what I expected. I woke up thinking about what I was planning on my birthday. I am determined to get something I really want this year, or at least I was. It would be pointless to say what it is so I wont but I was just thinking up all this amazing and wonderful scenarios and essentially was going to spend all my birthday money and savings on this so that I could get my wish... then I got some news earlier today while still plotting and kind of humming to my self, thinking of all the lovely possibilities. The news was... good and bad but mostly bad for me. So I started to chastize my self for being so stupid. I haven't behaved that way since I was in my early years of high school. Kind of made me feel like a naive little nit. By the way, I recommend never crying while making pork chops, the oil burns badly. >.< *dumb ass*
So after that, I was gearing up for a horrible evening and trying to straighten my face up for my mother, because today is her 41st birthday. Yay. And then I thought I would finally get on my myspace for the first time in... weeks. And I got some... INCREDIBLE news on there. At least I think it is. It could end up being another one of those foolishly setting my self up only to fall hard in the dirt... kind of like my plans for my birthday wish... and... well... other things. But I'm going to hope that it turns out well for me. I'm more cautious now and hesitant to do... well... anything. I guess I could say that I'm really just smarter and less naive than I used to be. More serious. Still a fun person... but more serious and slightly less of a dreamer... *though that tends to happen when you watch dreams, one after another, die*
I believe the words "Today's the day that dreaming ends" work well for what has happened to a lot of that... but I'm not done dreaming just yet. Besides, It takes some kind of a dreamer to think up the amazing plans I have for the future. Lets just hope they happen.
By the way, there has been a snag in my college dreams. Widner, as you already know, is about 50k a year so... I am looking at other alternative to maybe get my anthropology stuff done before my human sexuality stuff because I think I can get away with the anthropology thing for much cheaper... like... half... or less. *prays to every god and goddess she can think of*
Anyway, applying to more jobs now. Gotta run. Then I gotta decorate the house for x-mas. OH and I found a way to cheat the fireplace thing! We've never lived in a house that doesn't have a fire place... until now, soooo I am taking the fire place I made for Cinderella and setting it up in our living room and putting logs in it and hanging up stockings. We can at least pretend that Santa is going to come through the one inch thin, foam chimney. ^_^ <-- (dork)
And I am reading Satyricon... again. I need to. I enjoy the story more than I thought I would.
What am I doing now? Smiling like a saint and cursing like a sailor... (though they don't curse so bad). No. Anyways, I'm actually writing and then going for a walk, and then I'm going to work on Nick's scarf... and then... I... am... probably... taking a shower and putting on nice clothes. I want some new pics.
Oh and I edited my myspace a little bit today. It hasn't really changed. But I hid a lot of my pics.
WOOT! Good song came on my ipod just now. Some what ironic in a way... kinda makes me smile... lol. (KMFDM Intro)
Anyways, before I got distracted by the shiny thing...
So I was saying that today was definetly not what I expected. I woke up thinking about what I was planning on my birthday. I am determined to get something I really want this year, or at least I was. It would be pointless to say what it is so I wont but I was just thinking up all this amazing and wonderful scenarios and essentially was going to spend all my birthday money and savings on this so that I could get my wish... then I got some news earlier today while still plotting and kind of humming to my self, thinking of all the lovely possibilities. The news was... good and bad but mostly bad for me. So I started to chastize my self for being so stupid. I haven't behaved that way since I was in my early years of high school. Kind of made me feel like a naive little nit. By the way, I recommend never crying while making pork chops, the oil burns badly. >.< *dumb ass*
So after that, I was gearing up for a horrible evening and trying to straighten my face up for my mother, because today is her 41st birthday. Yay. And then I thought I would finally get on my myspace for the first time in... weeks. And I got some... INCREDIBLE news on there. At least I think it is. It could end up being another one of those foolishly setting my self up only to fall hard in the dirt... kind of like my plans for my birthday wish... and... well... other things. But I'm going to hope that it turns out well for me. I'm more cautious now and hesitant to do... well... anything. I guess I could say that I'm really just smarter and less naive than I used to be. More serious. Still a fun person... but more serious and slightly less of a dreamer... *though that tends to happen when you watch dreams, one after another, die*
I believe the words "Today's the day that dreaming ends" work well for what has happened to a lot of that... but I'm not done dreaming just yet. Besides, It takes some kind of a dreamer to think up the amazing plans I have for the future. Lets just hope they happen.
By the way, there has been a snag in my college dreams. Widner, as you already know, is about 50k a year so... I am looking at other alternative to maybe get my anthropology stuff done before my human sexuality stuff because I think I can get away with the anthropology thing for much cheaper... like... half... or less. *prays to every god and goddess she can think of*
Anyway, applying to more jobs now. Gotta run. Then I gotta decorate the house for x-mas. OH and I found a way to cheat the fireplace thing! We've never lived in a house that doesn't have a fire place... until now, soooo I am taking the fire place I made for Cinderella and setting it up in our living room and putting logs in it and hanging up stockings. We can at least pretend that Santa is going to come through the one inch thin, foam chimney. ^_^ <-- (dork)
And I am reading Satyricon... again. I need to. I enjoy the story more than I thought I would.
What am I doing now? Smiling like a saint and cursing like a sailor... (though they don't curse so bad). No. Anyways, I'm actually writing and then going for a walk, and then I'm going to work on Nick's scarf... and then... I... am... probably... taking a shower and putting on nice clothes. I want some new pics.
Oh and I edited my myspace a little bit today. It hasn't really changed. But I hid a lot of my pics.