Nervous-excited!
So I start school tomorrow. Im glad Im starting, but Im nervous for Travis and my relationship. We wont be seeing eachother monday or wednesday nights because I have to get up at the butt crack of dawn. On top of that I get so stressed out and push myself too hard that I know Im going to be bitchy. So I overreacted a bit in my last entry. But I do love him and love our relationship. We do fight a lot, but like we were talking about this morning...the main reason for that is because I dont trust him when Im away from him. Now that Ill be in school that means less of us seeing eachother and more fighting.
Things could be so much easier on me but Im not pushing our relationship to that extent. I know its too soon. Zach and I moved in together after a month. Stupid? Maybe. I just loved waking up next to the person I loved every morning. Getting ready together. Making his lunch for him. I guess i just love the idea of being in love? If that makes any sense. I wish I could tell Travis. Every time I do I just freeze. Ive never had to tell a guy before. He probably doesn't feel the same way so why would I embarrass myself like that? Ugh I hate this point.
I dont want to lose Travis. But with school Im afraid of what will happen.
Things could be so much easier on me but Im not pushing our relationship to that extent. I know its too soon. Zach and I moved in together after a month. Stupid? Maybe. I just loved waking up next to the person I loved every morning. Getting ready together. Making his lunch for him. I guess i just love the idea of being in love? If that makes any sense. I wish I could tell Travis. Every time I do I just freeze. Ive never had to tell a guy before. He probably doesn't feel the same way so why would I embarrass myself like that? Ugh I hate this point.
I dont want to lose Travis. But with school Im afraid of what will happen.