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I don't even remember exactly what I was dreaming but it was really fucking cracked out. I think maybe someone is putting drugs in my meds again, wtf?
Also, fangs_up1 scared the fuck out of me this morning. Idk why, but when I hear a man's voice, I either think it's my ex and/or his friends or I think it's the cops, both of which are bad news situations, especially when I'm not fully awake. Yeah, I know it's not rational. But I heard Johnathan this morning as I was still mostly asleep and already kinda freaked by my dreams, and it was like I was instantly awake and panicking. B/c I'm a freak, apparently, and the sound of a man at the door gives me a panic attack. *fail* I don't know when Johnathan's voice changed, though, lol.
I was going to give him a hard time about it, but it wasn't worth getting out of bed for, haha.
Off work today! I'm going back to sleep for a couple hours, gotta take the boys to meet their teachers later this afternoon. :)
Also, fangs_up1 scared the fuck out of me this morning. Idk why, but when I hear a man's voice, I either think it's my ex and/or his friends or I think it's the cops, both of which are bad news situations, especially when I'm not fully awake. Yeah, I know it's not rational. But I heard Johnathan this morning as I was still mostly asleep and already kinda freaked by my dreams, and it was like I was instantly awake and panicking. B/c I'm a freak, apparently, and the sound of a man at the door gives me a panic attack. *fail* I don't know when Johnathan's voice changed, though, lol.
I was going to give him a hard time about it, but it wasn't worth getting out of bed for, haha.
Off work today! I'm going back to sleep for a couple hours, gotta take the boys to meet their teachers later this afternoon. :)