rant
Warning this is a self centered rant from someone in a funky mood:
I want flowers, the last time i got flowers was for my birthday 2 years ago, it was a beautiful dozen red roses, but damnit it was two years ago. Jim and I have this problem, he thinks he should buy the best most wonderful flowers (ie expensive florist kind) where I want the gesture and some pretty flowers to enjoy for a day or two (cheap sub $10 - $20 grocery store flowers). I have explained this but he doesn't care, I have stared at flowers almost everytime we go grocery shopping but he doesn't get the hint.
I know I'm not good about buying Jim stuff either, but i try, I'll bring him home a a pumpkin pie, bake cookies etc. This really started yesterday when I said lets go out to dinner. Jim had been home from work since 11:30 waiting for the dsl installation. He's like oh we should be good and go home, so I got pissed and said well then you can cook, so he decided we'd make lunch meat sandwhiches because that all he'll make! GRRRR! I got really pissed off in the car, because he doesn't get how much work he expects me to do and it pissed me off that he gets PAID time off, and that if I don't go to work we loose money. He said when I started working that he'd help with the chores, and he does, but only if I specificially ask him, am super nice the whole time he's doing it ( I say one word he doesn't like, he exclaims how he doesn't like how I'm treating him, storms off and leaves the task undone.)
So selfish me when we get home from the restraunt, wants to spend time with Jim. My computer is upstairs and he was working on his laptop so I asked him if he'd come up and join me. He comes up but puts on earplugs and completely ignores me anytime I ask about a project I'm trying to do to make HIS mother happy.
Its like I just want little signs that he still cares and thinks about me when I'm not around. It was excusable when we lived in the apartment and were flat broke, but now its just pissing me off. I specifically asked why doen't you stop on the way home from work one day and bring me flowers, but there is no where on the way!
I know I shouldn't expect things, but i'm going to be really pissed if he doesn't do something nice for valentines day, our last anniversery was ruined over hinges for a screen door. I don't remember the last time jim bought be a present that I didn't know about ahead of time. For xmas I got mario party a month early while I was out shopping with Jim - I bought every gift we gave out (some with jim, but most without), we agreed nothing for our anniversy, last birthday I got a video encoder thing that we picked out online, and i think I ordered, valentines last year I got in november(long story) was sleeping beauty and I don't think we did dinner out, xmas the year before was eq for both of us, nothing for our annivesry, and then the birthday that year was the flowers.
I would just like a I was out and you weren't hear and I thought of you, or you know for him to make a special effort or something. Or atleast take the earbuds off and help me do a site for his mom!
Ok i think the selfish rant is over, I really need to get out of this mood i'm in, I appologize to anyone who actually read all this, yes I know i'm being spoiled, but its how i feel.
I want flowers, the last time i got flowers was for my birthday 2 years ago, it was a beautiful dozen red roses, but damnit it was two years ago. Jim and I have this problem, he thinks he should buy the best most wonderful flowers (ie expensive florist kind) where I want the gesture and some pretty flowers to enjoy for a day or two (cheap sub $10 - $20 grocery store flowers). I have explained this but he doesn't care, I have stared at flowers almost everytime we go grocery shopping but he doesn't get the hint.
I know I'm not good about buying Jim stuff either, but i try, I'll bring him home a a pumpkin pie, bake cookies etc. This really started yesterday when I said lets go out to dinner. Jim had been home from work since 11:30 waiting for the dsl installation. He's like oh we should be good and go home, so I got pissed and said well then you can cook, so he decided we'd make lunch meat sandwhiches because that all he'll make! GRRRR! I got really pissed off in the car, because he doesn't get how much work he expects me to do and it pissed me off that he gets PAID time off, and that if I don't go to work we loose money. He said when I started working that he'd help with the chores, and he does, but only if I specificially ask him, am super nice the whole time he's doing it ( I say one word he doesn't like, he exclaims how he doesn't like how I'm treating him, storms off and leaves the task undone.)
So selfish me when we get home from the restraunt, wants to spend time with Jim. My computer is upstairs and he was working on his laptop so I asked him if he'd come up and join me. He comes up but puts on earplugs and completely ignores me anytime I ask about a project I'm trying to do to make HIS mother happy.
Its like I just want little signs that he still cares and thinks about me when I'm not around. It was excusable when we lived in the apartment and were flat broke, but now its just pissing me off. I specifically asked why doen't you stop on the way home from work one day and bring me flowers, but there is no where on the way!
I know I shouldn't expect things, but i'm going to be really pissed if he doesn't do something nice for valentines day, our last anniversery was ruined over hinges for a screen door. I don't remember the last time jim bought be a present that I didn't know about ahead of time. For xmas I got mario party a month early while I was out shopping with Jim - I bought every gift we gave out (some with jim, but most without), we agreed nothing for our anniversy, last birthday I got a video encoder thing that we picked out online, and i think I ordered, valentines last year I got in november(long story) was sleeping beauty and I don't think we did dinner out, xmas the year before was eq for both of us, nothing for our annivesry, and then the birthday that year was the flowers.
I would just like a I was out and you weren't hear and I thought of you, or you know for him to make a special effort or something. Or atleast take the earbuds off and help me do a site for his mom!
Ok i think the selfish rant is over, I really need to get out of this mood i'm in, I appologize to anyone who actually read all this, yes I know i'm being spoiled, but its how i feel.