Baby I Love you I Gotta Have you
Well, it's done....I'm moving into Pat's parent's house with him...yup I am....my parents don't agree with it but I am. I talked to my dad alone though and he said I don't agree with it but you do what you need to do. Because I told him about mom and how I can't deal with her anymore and that I think it'll make my relationship with her better...and he sorta agreed but he said now he'll have to deal with it all. And I said that he shouldn't have to and he said he won't for much longer....but I'm sure he will. He made the comment, "she can have everything the house and whatever I just want my truck and my clothes."
This may sound bad but I would like them to get a divorce....I think it woul make dad so much more happier and I dunno I just do. I don't want my mom to go through the hurt though. She may be mean sometimes but she's my mom and I don't want to see her hurt. But I mean sometimes I wonder if it's worse for her to be in the situation that she's in now. She really does hate her life sometimes.....well at least I think she does.
I do feel weird about moving out just because I have been with my parents for 21 years! I mean how weird....but it's not uncommon because my friend did want her b.f too move in with her and her mother. My mom did ask me "Are you just moving in with Pat's parents to get outta the house?" I said no.....because I just don't wanna get into it. How can I tell her that yeah I can't stand fighting with you all the time and you always take shit out on me....it gets old ya know?
But anywho...I'm just nervous it's another big step with Pat and we aren't engaged or anything....which kinda does bother me....but whatever....I think it would be easier with everyone if we were....so I just hope maybe with this new job we'll get engaged sooner! Which he might have a BETTER job than the other one....which'll be GREAT! Whoot something good is happening! YAY! I can kinda see the slump we were in slowly go away! Which it's a big relief you have NO idea. I just need my jobs to start panning out! And I have another interview on Monday with St. Luke's who knows if I'll get it though but oh well it'll be nice to get it but we'll see just cuz I already know their stuff there but we'll see there are only like three openings or something. But we'll see just about all of us applied for the stupid place so whatever.....I REALLY wanna work at Faxton anyways! But we'll see.
But I gotta wrap my mother's gifts so later.
This may sound bad but I would like them to get a divorce....I think it woul make dad so much more happier and I dunno I just do. I don't want my mom to go through the hurt though. She may be mean sometimes but she's my mom and I don't want to see her hurt. But I mean sometimes I wonder if it's worse for her to be in the situation that she's in now. She really does hate her life sometimes.....well at least I think she does.
I do feel weird about moving out just because I have been with my parents for 21 years! I mean how weird....but it's not uncommon because my friend did want her b.f too move in with her and her mother. My mom did ask me "Are you just moving in with Pat's parents to get outta the house?" I said no.....because I just don't wanna get into it. How can I tell her that yeah I can't stand fighting with you all the time and you always take shit out on me....it gets old ya know?
But anywho...I'm just nervous it's another big step with Pat and we aren't engaged or anything....which kinda does bother me....but whatever....I think it would be easier with everyone if we were....so I just hope maybe with this new job we'll get engaged sooner! Which he might have a BETTER job than the other one....which'll be GREAT! Whoot something good is happening! YAY! I can kinda see the slump we were in slowly go away! Which it's a big relief you have NO idea. I just need my jobs to start panning out! And I have another interview on Monday with St. Luke's who knows if I'll get it though but oh well it'll be nice to get it but we'll see just cuz I already know their stuff there but we'll see there are only like three openings or something. But we'll see just about all of us applied for the stupid place so whatever.....I REALLY wanna work at Faxton anyways! But we'll see.
But I gotta wrap my mother's gifts so later.