selfish
wow, it sure has been awhile. my car broke yesterday, so im not going to the wedding today. its amazing how isolating not having a car is...even when you live in a fairly pedestrian town where there are bus stops on every corner. oh well, sorry to everyone. i guess its selfish to assume that people will be upset that im not going, because they probably really dont care. i finished blue like jazz in about 5 days. its refreshing to read a good christian novelist. in other news, i get to go to rural studio next semester. i hope its life changing. i guess itll be like doing mission work for like 4 months. i dont know how im going to get there considering my car is a poc. this is useless information. i talked to preston yesterday for the first time in what feels like an eternity. its amazing to have friends who love you no matter what. ive looked back and realized how judgmental and hateful i have been in the past. id like to think that i have grown up since middle school and high school, but maybe i havent. i know my friends and i basically shunned those among us who were doing things we thought were unholy...we left them to the wolves. we didnt care if they didnt have friends anymore, we didnt care if they hurt. we just couldnt understand how "she could do that with him" or why "she wants to hang out with him all the time." and, well, when it came down to it, we just wanted ourselves to be happy and comfortable.
i guess ill just end this by saying maybe it was only me who feels like i treated her like that, but i believe we were all guilty of gossip and something other than love for our sister.