Sometimes I feel very alone, and other times I feel completely content and loved. So, then, which one is it, and why do those days insist on haunting and making me feel broken when I know I'm not really at all? I think it means I just need time away from here, even though I've spent the last two years thinking perpetually about wanting to be ( Read more... )

It has been over a year... I am in college. I am in love. I am happy.

I remember the day I met you, like it was yesterday...except that it was years and years ago and we didn't really meet...it was more like the day I first SAW you, because I was too shy to say hi and to say," I think I might be in love with you." (I had just heard you sing for the first time, auditioning for Into the Woods) Anyway, I watched you ( Read more... )

A bit of a fore-warning, I'm going to be long-winded, and I don't expect or need anyone to read this, but I can't stop thinking about it, so I think it's best that I just write it down, and I suppose this is as good a place as any. I'm back, after a pretty incredible week. In a lot of ways it was excessively dramatic, but the beautiful aspects ( Read more... )

I just got home from the recording studio with benjamin. We had lots of fun. I pretty much just read a bunch of monologues, and then we messed with them and he turned my voice super high so I sounded like a chipmunk...The word "slut" sounds soooo funny when a chipmunk voice says it. I'm off to Bay Chamber festival tonight. It should be a really ( Read more... )

I'm at Westminster right now. Hence this entry's subject. I love being here, even when they're telling me everything that's bad about my voice lol. I'm so hungry for growth and music and interacting with all of these brilliant people. I have a really lowsy voice teacher here who's mean and although brilliant, very closed-minded, and so I'm sort of ( Read more... )

Speeches are today in front of the student body, elections are monday...kinda bummed about the long in-between period but hopefully it'll just be more time for them to remember all of the awesome stuff we've been up to the last three years and all of the rest that we have to look forward to. Please say lots of prayers. God rocks me and I think this ( Read more... )

ALL STATE WAS AMAZING! My conductor was a little old black man and he was adorable and he looked like Jimminy Cricket and I will pretty much keep him in a special part of my heart forever. I've never experienced such intensity in a conductor before. It blew my mind and made me want to blow out my voice for him even though he was unbelievable and ( Read more... )

votives...haha. For everything that so many people went through the last long months, that prom was amazing. I loved looking around at everyone's faces and seeing the smiles, especially Tarra and George....holy goodness, if you want to see what love looks like, just look into Tarra's eyes while she's wrapped up in that boy's arms. I loved our group ( Read more... )

So I told my Tarra that I had something to put in here for her quite a few nights ago, before she came back home to me, but then I ended up not putting it in because it was basically just a bunch of silly thoughts I had and I wasn't happy with them in the end. So instead I'm just going to say this: I have hurt a lot before, and a lot this year ( Read more... )