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So.
I have an enlarged thyroid. I don't know yet what this means. It could mean hyperactive, could mean hypoactive, could mean inflamed, could mean...other things. I am mildly freaked out, to put it mildly. I have had the bloodwork done and I am waiting for the ultrasound next week. My hands, ears, throat and neck hurt and I am cold ALL the time. It's a gorgeous sunny day out, and I am wearing my turtleneck sweater because I can't stay warm. I am experiencing a total lack of energy or ambition, and a moderate lack of caring about the lack of either. Neither the antidepressants or the antianxiety meds are doing a BLOODY thing right now. I was back at school for three whole days this week before I started to feel sick again. I slept yesterday afternoon for about 3 hours, and then I was still tired when I woke up, but unable to fall asleep again until almost midnight. When I lie down, I can feel the lump in my neck that is my enlarged thyroid gland pulsing in time with my heartbeat...I think that it is because it's close to where I can feel my pulse rather than that the actual mass, or gland, or nodule is actually pulsating. Because that's kind of gross.
I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. I don't want to go to work, because when I am there, I feel even more stressed out and anxious and the more stressed out and anxious I get, the sicker i feel, and the sicker i feel the more stressed out and anxious I get! I'm trying not to panic, but at the same time....i'm panicking just a little bit.
I have an enlarged thyroid. I don't know yet what this means. It could mean hyperactive, could mean hypoactive, could mean inflamed, could mean...other things. I am mildly freaked out, to put it mildly. I have had the bloodwork done and I am waiting for the ultrasound next week. My hands, ears, throat and neck hurt and I am cold ALL the time. It's a gorgeous sunny day out, and I am wearing my turtleneck sweater because I can't stay warm. I am experiencing a total lack of energy or ambition, and a moderate lack of caring about the lack of either. Neither the antidepressants or the antianxiety meds are doing a BLOODY thing right now. I was back at school for three whole days this week before I started to feel sick again. I slept yesterday afternoon for about 3 hours, and then I was still tired when I woke up, but unable to fall asleep again until almost midnight. When I lie down, I can feel the lump in my neck that is my enlarged thyroid gland pulsing in time with my heartbeat...I think that it is because it's close to where I can feel my pulse rather than that the actual mass, or gland, or nodule is actually pulsating. Because that's kind of gross.
I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. I don't want to go to work, because when I am there, I feel even more stressed out and anxious and the more stressed out and anxious I get, the sicker i feel, and the sicker i feel the more stressed out and anxious I get! I'm trying not to panic, but at the same time....i'm panicking just a little bit.