And I'm numb.....
My thoughts have been washed over in a blanket of nothingness. It's soft, warm, not soothing in any way because I don't want it there. This is what happens and this is why I stop taking the creamsicles and whatever other sicles the man with the psychological plan has. I hate this feeling of dormant bliss, I don't want to smile, I don't want to frown I'm just HERE going through the motions. I do cry at sappy commericials so the emotions are still there but they come and go. I don't get angry, I just get sad about nothing. This isn't the way it's supposed to be. Ughhh....quit it I'm cool but I am starting to feel numb, again. what can I do what can I do what can I do about it except accept it but damnit I want the highs without the lows higher higher higher like 3 levels of highness that's all I want. I'll feel really good then and can get thinks done... right now I don't have the patience nor the drive to do much of anything except sit in silence. omg.the boredom is caving in around me.aggghhh. I'm over it. for real, dawg