I need a break......
A real one....not where that's medically necessary but one where I can enjoy myself and truely relax. This grown up shit is just too much, I realize it inevitable but I can I postpone it for just a little while longer?? Franky told me about his trip to the beach and I just read his blog and it just sounds so freeing. I haven't been to the beach in a long time let alone just being alone hearing the soothing sounds of the waves wash up against the shore and the expansive sky spread endlessly along the black horizon. I need that right now. I need my solace I yearn for it right now. I have been so consumed in being loved enough, being liked enough, being accepted enough when all that really matter is am I happy with myself. I have not spent time with myself and enjoyed it for a while and I think now I'm ready to have that again. Mmmmh....where is this going?? Does it really matter no? All I do know is I need a break and SPI 2007 will be it, escape to the warm texas beaches, hey it's better than no beach!!