Worth mentioning...
Earlier this year before school started, I had the feeling that God was going to do something in my life, that there was going to be a big change. I didn't know if it was this semester or this year.
Over the summer, I had a lot of hardships with a girl, and the overall message God was telling me was "I'm not done with you." Though the summer was hard, I was able to make it through on the promise that God wasn't finished with me yet. That He was still going to have the final word.
Well, this semester started, and things with the girl went from better to worse to where we are now (which means she and I aren't really friends anymore and never see each other or talk to one another). School started to pile on homework and projects, and I got lost in the flow of another semester of school.
There were a few hiccups here and there, and God confirmed in my heart that the major I am in is the right place to be. But for the most part, I forgot about the feeling I had of something going to happen. I had forgotten about God's promise that He wasn't finished.
Well, two weeks ago, I had a blind date with a marvel of a girl, and since then, she and I have been entertaining each other's company off and on, and have gone on a date (and will be going on another tonight). I felt a shift in my mood and my roommate noticed it as well. Things were turning for the better, and I was having a blast getting to know a new person, one who likes me for who I am apparently. (Really, the relationship I've been forming with this girl boggles my mind, since it seems I don't have to do anything to gain her favor, except be myself)
A couple days ago, my roommate mentioned how I said I thought God was gonna do something and was wondering when I thought that would be. I told him that I didn't know if it was gonna be this semester or this school year, but his comment sort of "awakened" me a bit. I hadn't thought of the promise God had given me, and it made me wonder if this could be it.
Here's a relationship that's slowly starting, one where I can sit back, laugh, enjoy it, not need to worry about it, but know that I like her and she likes me. This is what I wanted, daresay, this is what I've always wanted. I mean, sure, seriously and deep relationships are good, but right now... I'm enjoying getting to know this girl and having fun. And there are plenty of things I don't understand about the relationship, like why it's working, how it got started the way it did, and how come it feels like I don't have to do anything at all to keep this moving along steadily.
I'm not saying that this is some predestined relationship and I'm gonna end up marrying the girl. It's way too early to even think that's even the slightest of possibilities right now. But I wonder if this is what God was telling me about before school started.
Before, I thought something big was gonna happen. I thought it included the girl from over summer. When things fell through, I lost hope and the thought of something happening fell away. As the semester kept going, it completely left my mind and I resigned to being painfully single without getting a single date. And here I am now, not without a date, but with two... and though I'm still single, it's not painful.
I wonder where God is moving in my life because I feel His hand more now. Is He at work in this relationship? Yes. But I don't want to misinterpret the message He gave me this summer. He's not finished with me. I'm still not sure what He means, be it career, social life, personal life, or something much bigger. But I know that I want to be following His plan and listening to Him.
I've spent awhile trying to get by on my own, and it got me through my classes, but not through life. I've turned my eyes back to God and regained my hope. He is faithful. I just need to rely on Him.
Over the summer, I had a lot of hardships with a girl, and the overall message God was telling me was "I'm not done with you." Though the summer was hard, I was able to make it through on the promise that God wasn't finished with me yet. That He was still going to have the final word.
Well, this semester started, and things with the girl went from better to worse to where we are now (which means she and I aren't really friends anymore and never see each other or talk to one another). School started to pile on homework and projects, and I got lost in the flow of another semester of school.
There were a few hiccups here and there, and God confirmed in my heart that the major I am in is the right place to be. But for the most part, I forgot about the feeling I had of something going to happen. I had forgotten about God's promise that He wasn't finished.
Well, two weeks ago, I had a blind date with a marvel of a girl, and since then, she and I have been entertaining each other's company off and on, and have gone on a date (and will be going on another tonight). I felt a shift in my mood and my roommate noticed it as well. Things were turning for the better, and I was having a blast getting to know a new person, one who likes me for who I am apparently. (Really, the relationship I've been forming with this girl boggles my mind, since it seems I don't have to do anything to gain her favor, except be myself)
A couple days ago, my roommate mentioned how I said I thought God was gonna do something and was wondering when I thought that would be. I told him that I didn't know if it was gonna be this semester or this school year, but his comment sort of "awakened" me a bit. I hadn't thought of the promise God had given me, and it made me wonder if this could be it.
Here's a relationship that's slowly starting, one where I can sit back, laugh, enjoy it, not need to worry about it, but know that I like her and she likes me. This is what I wanted, daresay, this is what I've always wanted. I mean, sure, seriously and deep relationships are good, but right now... I'm enjoying getting to know this girl and having fun. And there are plenty of things I don't understand about the relationship, like why it's working, how it got started the way it did, and how come it feels like I don't have to do anything at all to keep this moving along steadily.
I'm not saying that this is some predestined relationship and I'm gonna end up marrying the girl. It's way too early to even think that's even the slightest of possibilities right now. But I wonder if this is what God was telling me about before school started.
Before, I thought something big was gonna happen. I thought it included the girl from over summer. When things fell through, I lost hope and the thought of something happening fell away. As the semester kept going, it completely left my mind and I resigned to being painfully single without getting a single date. And here I am now, not without a date, but with two... and though I'm still single, it's not painful.
I wonder where God is moving in my life because I feel His hand more now. Is He at work in this relationship? Yes. But I don't want to misinterpret the message He gave me this summer. He's not finished with me. I'm still not sure what He means, be it career, social life, personal life, or something much bigger. But I know that I want to be following His plan and listening to Him.
I've spent awhile trying to get by on my own, and it got me through my classes, but not through life. I've turned my eyes back to God and regained my hope. He is faithful. I just need to rely on Him.