UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!!!
well i finally got up the nerve to talk to justin tonight. i cornered him after work and we sat in his car and talked about nothing really for about 30 minutes or so. well then it finally got quiet and i just blurted out if we were ever gonna talk about what happened on my b-day. he said that he didnt know, that it just kinda happened. so i thought that he was gonna say that it was a one time thing, you know? well i asked him if it meant anything to him and he said YES!!!! i was in shock! i wasnt expecting that at all! i was all prepared for rejection! and he said breaking up with me was something he's regretted for a long time but he didnt know how to talk to me, just like i didnt know how to talk to him! im so glad i finally got the courage to ask him what this all meant, cuz he wants to go back out!!!! and i told him how much he hurt me the last time and he had better be sure this time cuz i couldnt go thru that again and i wont. and he said he's sure!!! and then we talked about the whole im not his girlfriend and he's not my boyfriend at work. im his boss. and we both agreed that it was hard but its just the way it had to be. so we're goin back out and we'll just have to see where it takes us! i hope everyone can be happy for me! cuz i know that a lot dont trust him for what he did to me the last time, but i think this time will be different. some will say that im being ignorant, but i just wanted him back and he wanted me back. that doesnt happen to me often! so please be happy for me!