i'm bored
i'm bored over here and my parents house watching the dog so i guess i'll write in this thing again.
i leave for utah tomorrow morning. i hate going back but if it gets me out of work for 3 days then i'll take it. my sister is graduating from BYU so i gotta go support her and be there. we're having this big party for her there and all our extended family is going to be there so it should be interesting ihaven't seen any of them in like 5 years. they probably won't even recognize me. i bet my sister won't even recognize me cuz i cut my hair and start straightening it and i've lost a good 20 pounds since she left. but anyways..
i hate having to work long shift when travis has the day off. knowing that he's home like right down the road is torture cuz i just wanna throw my hands up and be like uhh i'm sick i gotta go home just so i can spend some time with him. but i never call in sick. i always fucking do my job and everyone else's. that's what i get for attempting to be the lead tech. i need a couple years under my belt before i take that one on.
i'm scared....what happens when this lease is up. are me and travis going to be really close to the point we won't want to leave each other or are we just gonna be like ehhh and go our seperate ways. i guess it all depends on if i can get him to fall in love with me again. he wants to go away to school and i fully support that and told him i would follow and just transfer to a cvs there. his grandma is living here now and everytime we go see her she's like so when is that ring going to be on the other hand or are u going to be my grand daughter or when can i expect little grand babies from you guys. well ommi i would love for all that to happen but i don't see it happening anytime soon. travis doesn't want to get married he thinks it's to cliche in our society today. why not just be with someone and have that commitment and not bring all the work and expense of getting married. i kinda understand his view but at the same time i want to be someone's wife and i want someone else's last name and i want to grow old with someone. he was so anit-marriage when we first started dating and i changed his mind then...maybe i can again. i dunno. we'll see how we feel in 5 months and have to decide what now? after the least is up in sept.
well i'm going to work. fucking work a 10 hour shift today. sucks ass but the thought of me making 100 just today kinda changes my attitude. me and travis used to have such a big problem when i'd talk about money but now that we have to pay for our own shit and be careful with it he's singing a different tune. money's what makes the world go round. money is what enables us to get away from the things we want to like parents and texas eventually.
i leave for utah tomorrow morning. i hate going back but if it gets me out of work for 3 days then i'll take it. my sister is graduating from BYU so i gotta go support her and be there. we're having this big party for her there and all our extended family is going to be there so it should be interesting ihaven't seen any of them in like 5 years. they probably won't even recognize me. i bet my sister won't even recognize me cuz i cut my hair and start straightening it and i've lost a good 20 pounds since she left. but anyways..
i hate having to work long shift when travis has the day off. knowing that he's home like right down the road is torture cuz i just wanna throw my hands up and be like uhh i'm sick i gotta go home just so i can spend some time with him. but i never call in sick. i always fucking do my job and everyone else's. that's what i get for attempting to be the lead tech. i need a couple years under my belt before i take that one on.
i'm scared....what happens when this lease is up. are me and travis going to be really close to the point we won't want to leave each other or are we just gonna be like ehhh and go our seperate ways. i guess it all depends on if i can get him to fall in love with me again. he wants to go away to school and i fully support that and told him i would follow and just transfer to a cvs there. his grandma is living here now and everytime we go see her she's like so when is that ring going to be on the other hand or are u going to be my grand daughter or when can i expect little grand babies from you guys. well ommi i would love for all that to happen but i don't see it happening anytime soon. travis doesn't want to get married he thinks it's to cliche in our society today. why not just be with someone and have that commitment and not bring all the work and expense of getting married. i kinda understand his view but at the same time i want to be someone's wife and i want someone else's last name and i want to grow old with someone. he was so anit-marriage when we first started dating and i changed his mind then...maybe i can again. i dunno. we'll see how we feel in 5 months and have to decide what now? after the least is up in sept.
well i'm going to work. fucking work a 10 hour shift today. sucks ass but the thought of me making 100 just today kinda changes my attitude. me and travis used to have such a big problem when i'd talk about money but now that we have to pay for our own shit and be careful with it he's singing a different tune. money's what makes the world go round. money is what enables us to get away from the things we want to like parents and texas eventually.