I have a pulse
Things have gotten a little better lately, I have just learned that everything cant always be happy and the way we want it. You just have to learn ways to make yourself happy. I was in a bad mood at practice the other day, but i snapped out of it. I went to the baseball game and it was good but a blowout. I still really like the guy from Clintwood, he is such a nice guy, but I just want him to like me, but I dont think he does, but maybe i will just have to try harder. Everytime I see the show Deadwood on I think of him and how he absolutely loves that show and how he explained it to me and how after he graduates and lives here for awhile he wants to go back to South Dakota and live in the town of Deadwood and have a family and raise kids. It just makes me sad cause that is a wonderful life to have. He has hopes and dreams and he knows where he wants to go in life and that is wonderful. Everytime I play softball I think of him and how much he likes baseball and how he is really good at it. He is a great catcher and he plays with such a confidence in himself that some people cannot ever get. I just hope that maybe things could work out for us and he will realize that I would be a good girlfriend and I would treat him so good and he would not know where I have been all his life, but do I think that will happen, NO cause I'm just not a desireable person to most guys, but my looks shouldn't matter it should be how good I treat him and what kind of person I am and my personality, but thats not always how it goes. We dont always get what we want cause Loves a Bitch there is no doubt about that, but leave your comments and honesty is what I like to hear from people.