Heart_Broken
Lately things have just gotten worse with my life. I am always down and depressed. I get angry and have a bad attitude. I am losing my friends one by one. Nothing ever goes right for me, I mean i try so hard to try to make things work for myself but i cant because i always try to make things perfect and all i do is set myself up for dissapointment. I love basketball but lately sports just seem so pointless i dont want to quit because i love sports so much but i want to be able to have fun playing them again. Guys have never seemed to like me at all too ugly, too fat, just too unperfect. If only guys would give me a chance talk to me, have good converstion cause i listen very well with what people have to say, but sometimes i come on to guys too strongly and some guys may like it but i havent found one yet. I guess i need to simmer down and i know i say this all the time but there was this one guy i have known since i was in the fourth grade, and i have liked him since then too never forgot about him, but recently i saw him again talked to him on the internet had good conversation and everything but what do you think happened, it didn't work he just wants to be friends and he was honest with me and that's one thing I always want is honesty no matter how bad it may hurt me i hate to be lied to about things like that so if you read this and you know me try to be honest with me cause that will just make me like you more and consider you a better friend. I have feelings and I am a person and I know im not perfect but i can try. Please just everyone try to be happy think about all the good things in your alls lives and try to enjoy them the best way you can. I am depressed and tired of being this way and I'm going to do something about it so dont befriend me now cause my time will come and i think i will eventually be a little happier, but until then forgive me for being mean and annoying and just overall a bad person.