insomaniacal ramblings
i just got molested by a scary cricket. we battled over the use of my keyboard, and i barely won. (s)he's now been safely relocated to the communal restroom.
i may be driving myself slowly (or not so slowly) into insanity with all this reading. my brain's been on overload, and it's really hard to sleep cause i can't stop thinking. i have this obsessive compulsion to know various things, which results in way too much time wasted on google.
for one of the first times in my life, i find myself thinking "i need a bf." i usually scoff at such statements. lately, i've been quite nostalgic about my relationship with freddie. not about freddie, that is, but the relationship. i still talk to freddie daily, and love him very much. but it's the comfort of a good relationship i miss. bleh. i can't believe i'm writing about this. pathetic!
i'm scared the cricket might return. then what will i do???
i really love lifehouse, especially storm and everything.
my mom's surgery is in a couple weeks. i think in some ways i'm repressing my emotions about the seriousness of her condition and the surgery. i'm not sure how else to cope. she sent me a very nice card a couple weeks ago, which was meant to make me happy, but in actuality made me quite sad.
i think it'll be good to see freddie over fall break. sometimes an old friend hits the spot. i could use the sense of familiarity and safety.
i may be driving myself slowly (or not so slowly) into insanity with all this reading. my brain's been on overload, and it's really hard to sleep cause i can't stop thinking. i have this obsessive compulsion to know various things, which results in way too much time wasted on google.
for one of the first times in my life, i find myself thinking "i need a bf." i usually scoff at such statements. lately, i've been quite nostalgic about my relationship with freddie. not about freddie, that is, but the relationship. i still talk to freddie daily, and love him very much. but it's the comfort of a good relationship i miss. bleh. i can't believe i'm writing about this. pathetic!
i'm scared the cricket might return. then what will i do???
i really love lifehouse, especially storm and everything.
my mom's surgery is in a couple weeks. i think in some ways i'm repressing my emotions about the seriousness of her condition and the surgery. i'm not sure how else to cope. she sent me a very nice card a couple weeks ago, which was meant to make me happy, but in actuality made me quite sad.
i think it'll be good to see freddie over fall break. sometimes an old friend hits the spot. i could use the sense of familiarity and safety.