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Her girlfriend came up to me today.
She asked if she could borrow MY $500 camera for HER girlfriend's CD release party. I basically didn't look at her.
I told her that she knew my stance on the whole issue, but that I'd have to think about it.
HA.
my ass if she's getting her hands on my camera.
She begged me. I basically said no.
I need out.
I need out BADLY.
I'm toying with the idea of someone. Of being with her. I suppose we would be a good match. We're good friends. She gets me. I get her. She's funny. I'm funny. She loves music. I love music. But do I see her being WITH ME? Not entirely.
However, this whole...valentine's day thing...has me super nervous. 'Cause I want to make it super nice for her. But. Perhaps this is just my nature. I like to make things nice for everyone.
Heh.
Her friends still like me. They're not mean to me. They don't shun me. I think it's odd. Maybe it's because they're more mature. Or maybe it's because she just doesn't tell them anything about our fights. Either way, they ask to hang out with me. The only thing is...I'm afraid I'll run into/have to hang out with her if I do. She's yet to talk to me since our last fight.
And I've yet to really tell her that she's dead to me.
Today at lunch I was hanging with people that know her. One of which was Whitney. She said something about Sailer. I said something to the effect of, "I don't want anything to do with her" and she was kind of taken back by it. I think it offended her. But her...Becca...Hippie...all of them. They're all SUPER nice to me. All give me hugs. ALL the time. They WANT to celebrate my birthday with me.
It's weird.
She's the reason I want out of this city. This state pretty much.
I hate seeing her in the halls and shit. 'Cause I always look around and say hey to people. But when I see her I have to CONSCIENCELY look away and go out of my way to avoid her.
otherwise the whole cycle of drama just happens again.
annnnnnndddd
personally.
there's enough of that going on in my own group.
Seriously.
The group is about to be split for a second time. UGH. kdjf;alkdgja flippin. Ugh. But it's only going to get worse before it gets better.
Prom is coming. People keep saying I won't be allowed in because I'll be wearing a tux. I think that's stupid. I'm going to ask H-Pad. *sigh*
V-Day tomorrow.
Scary.
She asked if she could borrow MY $500 camera for HER girlfriend's CD release party. I basically didn't look at her.
I told her that she knew my stance on the whole issue, but that I'd have to think about it.
HA.
my ass if she's getting her hands on my camera.
She begged me. I basically said no.
I need out.
I need out BADLY.
I'm toying with the idea of someone. Of being with her. I suppose we would be a good match. We're good friends. She gets me. I get her. She's funny. I'm funny. She loves music. I love music. But do I see her being WITH ME? Not entirely.
However, this whole...valentine's day thing...has me super nervous. 'Cause I want to make it super nice for her. But. Perhaps this is just my nature. I like to make things nice for everyone.
Heh.
Her friends still like me. They're not mean to me. They don't shun me. I think it's odd. Maybe it's because they're more mature. Or maybe it's because she just doesn't tell them anything about our fights. Either way, they ask to hang out with me. The only thing is...I'm afraid I'll run into/have to hang out with her if I do. She's yet to talk to me since our last fight.
And I've yet to really tell her that she's dead to me.
Today at lunch I was hanging with people that know her. One of which was Whitney. She said something about Sailer. I said something to the effect of, "I don't want anything to do with her" and she was kind of taken back by it. I think it offended her. But her...Becca...Hippie...all of them. They're all SUPER nice to me. All give me hugs. ALL the time. They WANT to celebrate my birthday with me.
It's weird.
She's the reason I want out of this city. This state pretty much.
I hate seeing her in the halls and shit. 'Cause I always look around and say hey to people. But when I see her I have to CONSCIENCELY look away and go out of my way to avoid her.
otherwise the whole cycle of drama just happens again.
annnnnnndddd
personally.
there's enough of that going on in my own group.
Seriously.
The group is about to be split for a second time. UGH. kdjf;alkdgja flippin. Ugh. But it's only going to get worse before it gets better.
Prom is coming. People keep saying I won't be allowed in because I'll be wearing a tux. I think that's stupid. I'm going to ask H-Pad. *sigh*
V-Day tomorrow.
Scary.