That Trust Issue.
This is actually an exercise in trust. To whom? To everyone who can read this.
Some time back, I've blogged about not being able to express myself very well in writing.
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The above text has been in my drafts for a couple of days now, I never got to finishing this entry. Over those couple of days I'd actually tried to write it down but was either too lazy or couldn't get my thoughts together. Also, I kept wondering on whether or not to actually write this entry down. Anyway. Yun lang. *bow*
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So. This issue. I figured that I couldn't really put down in writing my thoughts end emotions because well, I didn't want to give myself away. For the longest time I'd been trying to be ambiguous with my entries not because (well, not entirely :P) I want to make my entries sound profound and deep but rather because I'd been fearing what exposing what truly ran inside my head could lead to. I'd not wanted anyone to see how frail or shallow or cheesy or weak or strong I am. This, as I said, follows my previous entry on being hesitant on opening up to people.
Pau had told me the other day 'We're not your friends you know... ****, ****, they're your friends. You've got a lot of acquaintances but you really just trust a really small circles of friends'. 2 things on her telling me that. One, I can't be that transparent can I? Two, wake up call. I know it's really not such a bad thing but I don't like the idea that I can't be open to new things, or people in this case. So here I am, writing this down. Trust exercise. LOL. Hardly.
Anyway. I am sleepy so I will sleep. I will finish this post later :P
Some time back, I've blogged about not being able to express myself very well in writing.
***
The above text has been in my drafts for a couple of days now, I never got to finishing this entry. Over those couple of days I'd actually tried to write it down but was either too lazy or couldn't get my thoughts together. Also, I kept wondering on whether or not to actually write this entry down. Anyway. Yun lang. *bow*
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So. This issue. I figured that I couldn't really put down in writing my thoughts end emotions because well, I didn't want to give myself away. For the longest time I'd been trying to be ambiguous with my entries not because (well, not entirely :P) I want to make my entries sound profound and deep but rather because I'd been fearing what exposing what truly ran inside my head could lead to. I'd not wanted anyone to see how frail or shallow or cheesy or weak or strong I am. This, as I said, follows my previous entry on being hesitant on opening up to people.
Pau had told me the other day 'We're not your friends you know... ****, ****, they're your friends. You've got a lot of acquaintances but you really just trust a really small circles of friends'. 2 things on her telling me that. One, I can't be that transparent can I? Two, wake up call. I know it's really not such a bad thing but I don't like the idea that I can't be open to new things, or people in this case. So here I am, writing this down. Trust exercise. LOL. Hardly.
Anyway. I am sleepy so I will sleep. I will finish this post later :P