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*GAGS*
uhhh worst couple days... ever
go ahead and think whatever your mind wants to make up about me... im just such a bad person and a liar (??)
yeah i screwed up and hurt you twice. i.am.sorry. you depended on me to make your life happier or make it come crashing down and never see you in my life again... uhh no pressure there, even though "it would be okay with whatever decision i make"... i knew damn well it wouldn't be okay, which is what prompted what happened. but i'm just a hypocrite with everything i say anyways right? and i went with my HEART, one of the many amazing things you taught me. but the day after our hour-long "conversation", i found out that it wasn't about being scared anymore, it was much more than that, which was why i took back the decision that next day when i had a clear head again- you got me caught up in your personal feelings that night and skewed my perspective. there's a line that's drawn of how much to tell a person of how you feel personally and towards them, and so that made me hurt you again unintentionally. and don't you dare say that it's about who i would have rather hurt because that's not what it was about. yes, you opened up to me, yes, you gave me so much and there's nothing you could have done more to change what has happened, and i have lost a type of person that one will not often come upon in life. i'm sorry i "ruined your life", i just couldn't give you what you wanted, and that means that i won't be able to be in your life anymore unfortunately. like ive said, do and act how you want to me because i've caused you enough pain, and i'll try not and say or act on it as best as i can. i'll be here if you ever want to come back.
uhhh worst couple days... ever
go ahead and think whatever your mind wants to make up about me... im just such a bad person and a liar (??)
yeah i screwed up and hurt you twice. i.am.sorry. you depended on me to make your life happier or make it come crashing down and never see you in my life again... uhh no pressure there, even though "it would be okay with whatever decision i make"... i knew damn well it wouldn't be okay, which is what prompted what happened. but i'm just a hypocrite with everything i say anyways right? and i went with my HEART, one of the many amazing things you taught me. but the day after our hour-long "conversation", i found out that it wasn't about being scared anymore, it was much more than that, which was why i took back the decision that next day when i had a clear head again- you got me caught up in your personal feelings that night and skewed my perspective. there's a line that's drawn of how much to tell a person of how you feel personally and towards them, and so that made me hurt you again unintentionally. and don't you dare say that it's about who i would have rather hurt because that's not what it was about. yes, you opened up to me, yes, you gave me so much and there's nothing you could have done more to change what has happened, and i have lost a type of person that one will not often come upon in life. i'm sorry i "ruined your life", i just couldn't give you what you wanted, and that means that i won't be able to be in your life anymore unfortunately. like ive said, do and act how you want to me because i've caused you enough pain, and i'll try not and say or act on it as best as i can. i'll be here if you ever want to come back.