I'm so tired of defending what I've become - what have I become?
Am currently so full of emotions. Brimming. Last night and early this morning, my world was upside down. I think it righted itself again. Now, to stay sane and grounded, then to dive headfirst into revision and remain immersed in it. Prelims and A's aren't everything, studies aren't everything, but they're a necessary hurdle I'll have to overcome. Anyway, just thought I'd share something that struck me today.
When they came to the other disciples, they saw a large crowd around them and the teachers of the law arguing with them. As soon as all the people saw Jesus, they were overwhelmed with wonder and ran to greet him. "What are you arguing with them about?" he asked. A man in the crowd answered, "Teacher, I brought you my son, who is possessed by a spirit that has robbed him of speech. Whenever it seizes him, it throws him to the ground. He foams at the mouth, gnashes his teeth and becomes rigid. I asked your disciples to drive out the spirit, but they could not." "O unbelieving generation," Jesus replied, "how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy to me." So they brought him. When the spirit saw Jesus, it immediately threw the boy into a convulsion. He fell to the ground and rolled around, foaming at the mouth. Jesus asked the boy's father, "How long has he been like this?" "From childhood," he answered. "It has often thrown him into fire or water to kill him. But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us." "'If you can'?" said Jesus. "Everything is possible for him who believes." Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"
Mark 9:14-24 (NIV)
One word: WOW. I read the NKJV version at first so it didn't really hit me as much as the NIV version did.
"Believing" is the condition for answered prayer for a healing. It was never a question of God's ability. Idk but when I read the passage, I could almost hear Jesus' indignant voice exclaiming almost-sarcastically: If I can?! Well of course I can! It's only you who never believed enough to receive the healing. So in all senses of the word 'healing', I want to believe to receive it. Lord, please help me overcome my unbelief.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV)
And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.
Matthew 28:20b (ESV)
Deliver me from this burden of fear.
I love You.
I hear You say,
"My love is over, it's underneath
It's inside, it's in between
The times you doubt Me when you can't feel
The times that you question, is this for real?
The times you're broken, the times that you mend
The times that you hate Me and the times that you bend
Well, My love is over, it's underneath
It's inside, it's in between
These times you're healing and when your heart breaks
The times that you feel like you're falling from grace
The times you're hurting, the times that you heal
The times you go hungry and are tempted to steal
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain
I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame
I'm there through your heartache
I'm there in the storm
My love, I will keep you, by My power alone
I don't care where you fall, where you have been
I'll never forsake you, My love never ends
It never ends."
:) :) :) :) :)
When they came to the other disciples, they saw a large crowd around them and the teachers of the law arguing with them. As soon as all the people saw Jesus, they were overwhelmed with wonder and ran to greet him. "What are you arguing with them about?" he asked. A man in the crowd answered, "Teacher, I brought you my son, who is possessed by a spirit that has robbed him of speech. Whenever it seizes him, it throws him to the ground. He foams at the mouth, gnashes his teeth and becomes rigid. I asked your disciples to drive out the spirit, but they could not." "O unbelieving generation," Jesus replied, "how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy to me." So they brought him. When the spirit saw Jesus, it immediately threw the boy into a convulsion. He fell to the ground and rolled around, foaming at the mouth. Jesus asked the boy's father, "How long has he been like this?" "From childhood," he answered. "It has often thrown him into fire or water to kill him. But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us." "'If you can'?" said Jesus. "Everything is possible for him who believes." Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"
Mark 9:14-24 (NIV)
One word: WOW. I read the NKJV version at first so it didn't really hit me as much as the NIV version did.
"Believing" is the condition for answered prayer for a healing. It was never a question of God's ability. Idk but when I read the passage, I could almost hear Jesus' indignant voice exclaiming almost-sarcastically: If I can?! Well of course I can! It's only you who never believed enough to receive the healing. So in all senses of the word 'healing', I want to believe to receive it. Lord, please help me overcome my unbelief.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV)
And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.
Matthew 28:20b (ESV)
Deliver me from this burden of fear.
I love You.
I hear You say,
"My love is over, it's underneath
It's inside, it's in between
The times you doubt Me when you can't feel
The times that you question, is this for real?
The times you're broken, the times that you mend
The times that you hate Me and the times that you bend
Well, My love is over, it's underneath
It's inside, it's in between
These times you're healing and when your heart breaks
The times that you feel like you're falling from grace
The times you're hurting, the times that you heal
The times you go hungry and are tempted to steal
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain
I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame
I'm there through your heartache
I'm there in the storm
My love, I will keep you, by My power alone
I don't care where you fall, where you have been
I'll never forsake you, My love never ends
It never ends."
:) :) :) :) :)