'I am -- I overcome'
Click to viewI woke up feeling much better. The cold is in full swing but at least the ache, pains, sore throat and fever has resided. Last night I had trouble sleeping again between about 2:45- 4:45 AM which is when I’m usually waking up. This time I just transported myself to a forest. I stayed focused on that forest and quieted my mind until finally I fell back asleep. Not sure if this tactic will work every time but I’m not feeling as terrible as yesterday. For some reason forests and nature always have the ability to calm me. Partially because of where I grew up with having the forest all around me in the my backyard. Whenever I was stresses back home I’d just go on a hike, and if I really was having a bad time I could off into desolation. I go back home (in my mind).
I physically need nature to ground and calm me. Since I live in a big city now it’s harder to find the woods, and certainly never the deep woods I’m used to. It should come as no surprise that many empaths and sensitives are often drawn to nature to recharge and reflect. I’m usually able to go straight to a tree and feed energetically (with permission of course, they are living beings as well.) This could be part of the reason I felt so rejuvenated in NOLA. In fact I slept better there then I have at home before and after the vacation. Finding a place with trees and water is like hitting the psychic jackpot for me. I’ve never been afraid in the woods, I enjoy the solitude.
Hope Valley, CA.
I used to go to one place back home that the ability to calm me. Somewhere far out in the woods. It was in Hope Valley. You had to have a four-wheel drive vehicle to make it up there. You also had to wait late enough into the summer for the snow pack to have melted. There was a mine up there that people used to dig out when looking for gold . Little did they know back then that there is no gold in the basin, but the gold rush of Sacramento and other areas sent them looking here. After they deserted the operation they left an exposed pile of quartz crystals. There are two varieties both the clear and smoky quartz. We used to go camp out there for a few days and go crystal digging. We sometimes had a knack of getting stuck out there , as there were a lot of potholes and ruts in the dirt road. On the way up the mountain is a rushing river with meadows in between the lower areas.
One time when I was pregnant with Em we went out there just for a day trip. I thought I would get stuck out there, because Cory (my ex) had taken off up the hill to go looking for gold. He used to be obsessed with it. I only went for the crystals. So he took off up one side of the mountain and I stayed there. After hours and hours it began to get dark, and I knew I couldn’t hike up there because I was 8 months pregnant. So I had to wait, and I began to think I would have to get a search party. Also I couldn’t drive at that point and I didn’t have the car keys. I had a moment where I thought I may be stranded in the woods all alone.
I didn’t know how long I should wait before attempting to get help. This place is so secluded I would have to walk about nine miles just to get to the main highway and it was another 19 miles in one direction just back to outskirts of town. There was no way I would make it, even I tried. My best bet was making it to the highway where I could flag down a passing motorist at some point. People rarely came out this way though. I sat there for a while just contemplating the mess I was stuck in, and I decided living in the woods wouldn’t be so bad if I weren’t pregnant, but this was possibly the worst case scenario I could conceive of. This was before people carried cell phones.
I began walking down the path to go get help when about an hour later Cory came driving down the path and he had been looking for me. Thank the Gods! We left and drove back out and home. It was during this trip that I lost the fear of the woods. Luckily, I never found myself in a situation like that again. Instead I long to be there often and it’s a peaceful solitude. I have of course over the years been back quite often and always find some awesome crystals.
What do trees have to teach us? They have weathered the storm and are still standing and I find that life has been very much the same. My astrology is spot on- 'I AM- I overcome!'
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~Roses