just an update and a rant
Hey all,
So, I was shopping yesterday and my mom called. She informed me that Batina and Kaizer are going to separate after Sabrina's eye operation in March (she's blind in one eye now). And it makes me mad cause I don't want to not to talk to Batina cause she's one of the few adults that actually treats me like a fellow adult even when I was a teenager. It felt so nice to have someone to relate to who was older than me and still could relate to me. Now, who knows what's gonna happen. We'll have to wait til March and I'm flying down for Spring Break to help her (cause she's one of my mom's few friends). We're not really sure what happened between the two and they don't want anyone to know so if you see them don't tell them I told you this...not like you would. I wonder if all architect guys are fucked up or its just Kaizer and my dad (cause they're both similiar at times but for the most part they can be cool). They're definately on the same wavelength though>.<'
ARGH!
Anyway, um..I don't think there's much else going on. I got my one book, the stupid ass book finally came in . And I have alot of reading to catch up on. I just wish my quant book would come in so I don't have to worry about the exam coming up in a few weeks. I hate quant>.< I want it to blow up and never come back except in quantum dots that no one can understand at the moment. Sighs, I also have to start looking for a new research advisor cause the one I really wanted with all my heart is leaving (runs and crys in a corner). He was one of the few organic professors here. Also, he was the only one who was doing synthesis! All the others do computational. I think I might have to do the biochem. He said I don't have to do the research but I really want to. Even if I get a job, it won't hurt me. It will just show them how determined I am. I already know what I want to my PhD project on...now I just need a professor....>.< and a different school. Y.Y
I miss people. Actually....
I've been kind of depressed for no reason really. I'm not sure if its the insomia catching up with me or the fact that I wake up and I don't know where I am. And then I find that my roomate's boyfriend has come in/left when I had no idea. It freaks the hell out of me. I don't mind that he's here really I don't, I just don't like the fact that he leaves and I don't know. I mean, I know I did this back in college and it didn't bother me so much but now its really taking its toll. Last night, I really didn't sleep until this morning and then I woke up around 9 so I could catch the mail bus. (Yeah they have a mail bus here instead of going to the post office). Perhaps my period is coming up..I never can tell, I miss my indicators (the other girls in Apt H). I want this semester to be over with..Heck, I need school to be over with so I can just...I don't know...feel like I'm actually doing something. I feel like I'm not doing anything really productive and I know I'll work when it comes time but I want something to keep my mind of it (whatever it is). ........................................................i just don't know anymore at times.
Anyway, I gtg do some serious reading luv yas! GLOMPS!
So, I was shopping yesterday and my mom called. She informed me that Batina and Kaizer are going to separate after Sabrina's eye operation in March (she's blind in one eye now). And it makes me mad cause I don't want to not to talk to Batina cause she's one of the few adults that actually treats me like a fellow adult even when I was a teenager. It felt so nice to have someone to relate to who was older than me and still could relate to me. Now, who knows what's gonna happen. We'll have to wait til March and I'm flying down for Spring Break to help her (cause she's one of my mom's few friends). We're not really sure what happened between the two and they don't want anyone to know so if you see them don't tell them I told you this...not like you would. I wonder if all architect guys are fucked up or its just Kaizer and my dad (cause they're both similiar at times but for the most part they can be cool). They're definately on the same wavelength though>.<'
ARGH!
Anyway, um..I don't think there's much else going on. I got my one book, the stupid ass book finally came in . And I have alot of reading to catch up on. I just wish my quant book would come in so I don't have to worry about the exam coming up in a few weeks. I hate quant>.< I want it to blow up and never come back except in quantum dots that no one can understand at the moment. Sighs, I also have to start looking for a new research advisor cause the one I really wanted with all my heart is leaving (runs and crys in a corner). He was one of the few organic professors here. Also, he was the only one who was doing synthesis! All the others do computational. I think I might have to do the biochem. He said I don't have to do the research but I really want to. Even if I get a job, it won't hurt me. It will just show them how determined I am. I already know what I want to my PhD project on...now I just need a professor....>.< and a different school. Y.Y
I miss people. Actually....
I've been kind of depressed for no reason really. I'm not sure if its the insomia catching up with me or the fact that I wake up and I don't know where I am. And then I find that my roomate's boyfriend has come in/left when I had no idea. It freaks the hell out of me. I don't mind that he's here really I don't, I just don't like the fact that he leaves and I don't know. I mean, I know I did this back in college and it didn't bother me so much but now its really taking its toll. Last night, I really didn't sleep until this morning and then I woke up around 9 so I could catch the mail bus. (Yeah they have a mail bus here instead of going to the post office). Perhaps my period is coming up..I never can tell, I miss my indicators (the other girls in Apt H). I want this semester to be over with..Heck, I need school to be over with so I can just...I don't know...feel like I'm actually doing something. I feel like I'm not doing anything really productive and I know I'll work when it comes time but I want something to keep my mind of it (whatever it is). ........................................................i just don't know anymore at times.
Anyway, I gtg do some serious reading luv yas! GLOMPS!