Brain Dump
So, I'm posting, more or less just to post. My mind is a jumbled mess these days and the daily routine of Wal-mart wears upon me. Relatively mundane things that are out of my normal routine seem like a breath of fresh air to me. It's actually kind of sad. Also, since I spend inordinate amounts of time sitting around Wal-mart since we don't have completely overlapping shifts, I waste a majority of my productive hours sitting in the break room with naught but my game idea notebook. I get home and the hours left are my wind-down time; sad, and unfortunate.
My wedding is coming up kinda quick. It's a little intimidating. I'm not really intimidated about being married, that's a relatively comforting thought. More in my mind is the big production that is the wedding. Worrying about getting this or that done. Rhonda wants to write vows, and well, part of my subconscious (the same part that hates public speaking) is afraid I'll choke mid delivery. Otherwise I have no problems with the vows. She also wants to do the Thriller dance, and dancing is one thing, but a dance such as that, I'm not really comfortable with, I mean I'm not big on dancing anyways. (damn that "13 going on 30" movie!) But really, it comes down to marriage = yay, but all the stuff going on is a little wearing.
A lot of the other stuff going on in my head are things that I've talked about before. Things like a depressing lack of ambition, a soul crushing place of employment, a general ponderance of where my life is headed. The when of the whole family thing is up in the air, which is one of those things that gets pondered when I spend time with my nephew to be.
My art routines have stalled a little, I need to get back into a routine with that. I think that I may have stumbled a little when they started to jumble around our work schedules. A fellow co-worker wants me to do a drawing for him of his girlfriends son as a superhero. It sounds like something interesting to do, although I myself am a little nervous, since I've always struggled with portraiture/caricature.
I'm kind of tired now though, perhaps it would be best if I get to bed soon. I am under the impression that there is work to be had upon the morrow. Alas that I couldn't have Saturday off. Alas.
My wedding is coming up kinda quick. It's a little intimidating. I'm not really intimidated about being married, that's a relatively comforting thought. More in my mind is the big production that is the wedding. Worrying about getting this or that done. Rhonda wants to write vows, and well, part of my subconscious (the same part that hates public speaking) is afraid I'll choke mid delivery. Otherwise I have no problems with the vows. She also wants to do the Thriller dance, and dancing is one thing, but a dance such as that, I'm not really comfortable with, I mean I'm not big on dancing anyways. (damn that "13 going on 30" movie!) But really, it comes down to marriage = yay, but all the stuff going on is a little wearing.
A lot of the other stuff going on in my head are things that I've talked about before. Things like a depressing lack of ambition, a soul crushing place of employment, a general ponderance of where my life is headed. The when of the whole family thing is up in the air, which is one of those things that gets pondered when I spend time with my nephew to be.
My art routines have stalled a little, I need to get back into a routine with that. I think that I may have stumbled a little when they started to jumble around our work schedules. A fellow co-worker wants me to do a drawing for him of his girlfriends son as a superhero. It sounds like something interesting to do, although I myself am a little nervous, since I've always struggled with portraiture/caricature.
I'm kind of tired now though, perhaps it would be best if I get to bed soon. I am under the impression that there is work to be had upon the morrow. Alas that I couldn't have Saturday off. Alas.