Real Quick Before Bed...
Hmmmm Jus got called "Mary Cherry"... damn, it's been a while. Night Jensen...
Today all I did was pretty much jus rock out to a whole buncha music... then eventually went to the mall with Heidi. Mom gave me some money to get 2 pairs of jeans n some shoes... so I ended up gettin 1 pair of jeans n some shoes... but didn't have enough time there to find a second pair of pants. I'm pretty sure I know which ones I want tho, Mom said we might be able to fit some shopping time in on Friday.
Apparenltly plans have changed for Sunday... Mom said this n I got upset.. thinking she was backing out of helpin me get my room done n over with... but I guess all she meant was we're gunna hafta do it in the a.m. instead of at like 4. So it's ok, a lil less time to pack shit up but i spent like a half hour on that today n got half of it done so i don't think i should have too many problems gettin it all ready.
When I got home from the mall today there was n IM from Ricky... didn't say much but at least I know he knows I still exist. Haha just jOkin, but it was a relief... especially after all my thoughts last night. He said he's gunna try to call me tomorrow... God I hope he does. There's so many things I wanna tell him, tho I'm sure when I finally do getta talk to him I'll forget each n every one of em. Man... he's gunna have a lot to talk about too. Haha yay. God I can't wait to hear his voice again.
I was sad to see that I'd missed his IM tho, I really would have liked to talk to him tonight. Oh well, what can ya do, i guess....
I guess I'm chillin with Heidi tomorrow during the day, then kickin it with dad at like 7:30... donno that we'll actually DO anything but talk but whatever. OH SHIT!!!!! FUCK! damn it... I'm prolly gunna be with my dad when Ricky calls. god damn it. :'(... way ta make me cry.
Ughhhh anyways. Jim saw me today... briefly said somethin about how the pen thing is being sent in the mail to him... for that thing his mom wants done. Meh. I jus wnana get the work done with n get the money. Jus wanna have the 350 set n there. Damn I still need to somehow save up 15 bucks within the next couple weeks ha. {groan} mom's gunna murder me.
Randomly just thought of Randy... not sure why, ha i think it's kinda weird that the last time i saw him/talked to him in person... was the 2nd to last day of school when i finally got enough of his attention to try n say that i was gunna miss him over the summer, that i knew i wouldn't see him unless i went to the ranch a couple times or somethin like that. Look at that... I didn't go to the ranch once this summer, therefore i have not seen him at all. But that last time i did talk to him tho... er... tried to talk to him is more like it, he ended up actin all immature n stupid n i got pissed cuz he wasn't even listenin to me n so i said "ya know what fuck it nvm. see ya" n walked away. He did not care. And I have not seen him since. Needless to say, my feelings for him did not last much longer than that. day.
I'm so tired... runnin on less than 5 hours of sleep here... n bout ready to go crash on the couch AGAIN!. I'm too tired ta stay up much longer.
Hmmm come to think of it.. much longer than NOW... yea... now sounds good.
{sigh} so I'm outz then.
night
and Ricky... don't you forget it... "Think back to me when you close your eyes cuz....." *oh n I still gotta send you your new poem 0 :-)