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no one needs to hear me whine about my life.
so i think maybe i should just stay here with my mom because all i ever do is run.
even if its not the best i should just stop giving up. because i give up on everything.
even mrs. dequatro know its my fucking downfall.
even corey told me thats why no one likes me.
im sorrrrrrry everyone, gawd.
anyway, i miss my dad alot.
it was so fucking nice of him to pick me up at school at 830 am coming from boston and to bring me to school from boston at 730 this am.
i wish i didnt fucking suck at art, so i could atleast go to a fucking art college and not have to face failing.
its so fucking hard to turn around giving up.
ive done it all my life and im not sure if i can stop.
whatever ill just bitch and moan some more.
but i guess my mom tries.
the only person who cares the tiniest bit of whats going on in my life (my age) is katherine.
i dont mind though. im glad shes basically the only person i hang out with.
maybe having one friend will make it easier to focus on school.
i will probs be grounded for life soon anway because of my report card.
for xmas i am asking for cable tv because i have no friends and need something to do when it snows without getting wet.
im asking my dad for tons of art supplies so maybe i can become good at some shit.
i cant ask anyone for a fucking car because i dont know anyone who can afford it. or shoes.
My friend kat just told me that she doesnt have "half the talent" that i have, wtf?!?!
and she was referring to my writing. i used to write.
i used to want to be a writer.
then i decided writing couldnt get me anywhere.
not with my 2.34 gpa.
not with anything.
ive given up on writing.
and i dont want to talk about how dissapointing that is.
she told me just now that if i wrote about my lief up until now, best seller. haha. shes cute.
im just worried about my future so fucking much.
and its not like my life is peachy to keep my mind off of it either.
oh well molli, shut the fuck up.
people in africa are starving and you get to live this life with so many opportunities.
im sorry everyone that ive been bitching.
so i think maybe i should just stay here with my mom because all i ever do is run.
even if its not the best i should just stop giving up. because i give up on everything.
even mrs. dequatro know its my fucking downfall.
even corey told me thats why no one likes me.
im sorrrrrrry everyone, gawd.
anyway, i miss my dad alot.
it was so fucking nice of him to pick me up at school at 830 am coming from boston and to bring me to school from boston at 730 this am.
i wish i didnt fucking suck at art, so i could atleast go to a fucking art college and not have to face failing.
its so fucking hard to turn around giving up.
ive done it all my life and im not sure if i can stop.
whatever ill just bitch and moan some more.
but i guess my mom tries.
the only person who cares the tiniest bit of whats going on in my life (my age) is katherine.
i dont mind though. im glad shes basically the only person i hang out with.
maybe having one friend will make it easier to focus on school.
i will probs be grounded for life soon anway because of my report card.
for xmas i am asking for cable tv because i have no friends and need something to do when it snows without getting wet.
im asking my dad for tons of art supplies so maybe i can become good at some shit.
i cant ask anyone for a fucking car because i dont know anyone who can afford it. or shoes.
My friend kat just told me that she doesnt have "half the talent" that i have, wtf?!?!
and she was referring to my writing. i used to write.
i used to want to be a writer.
then i decided writing couldnt get me anywhere.
not with my 2.34 gpa.
not with anything.
ive given up on writing.
and i dont want to talk about how dissapointing that is.
she told me just now that if i wrote about my lief up until now, best seller. haha. shes cute.
im just worried about my future so fucking much.
and its not like my life is peachy to keep my mind off of it either.
oh well molli, shut the fuck up.
people in africa are starving and you get to live this life with so many opportunities.
im sorry everyone that ive been bitching.