"Should have all worked out, but it didn't. She should be here now, but she isn't." - Dixie Chicks
I can't believe its been so long since it happened already :-/ I used to think that maybe once this it was all over I'll be able to get some sleep again. But no, I laid down for 6 hours last night and all i did was toss and turn. My head hurts from just thinking. All i wanted last night was to be comforted. Its just... i never really thought it was ever going to be a problem...
Last night i turned over in my bed again and again. It felt like all I wanted was a hug. Someone to just tell me it was going to be alright - and mean it. But no one would be really sure what to say anyway. I mean, fuck, last night i got my god damn stuffed Peemeepage dog out of the closet to lay with. I know that only about 5 of you who read this have a clue what that furry little dog shaped sack of beans and fluff means to me. It helped me lay still (i figured it would - its at least something of a familiarity, comfort area) but as expected it made me really pissed off in the morning to roll over and see it.
Last night i turned over in my bed again and again. It felt like all I wanted was a hug. Someone to just tell me it was going to be alright - and mean it. But no one would be really sure what to say anyway. I mean, fuck, last night i got my god damn stuffed Peemeepage dog out of the closet to lay with. I know that only about 5 of you who read this have a clue what that furry little dog shaped sack of beans and fluff means to me. It helped me lay still (i figured it would - its at least something of a familiarity, comfort area) but as expected it made me really pissed off in the morning to roll over and see it.